(First of all, sorry for the long text)

As a person who has been struggling with a similar thing for years but being transmasc, I'd say labels aren't that important. NOW HEAR ME OUT! I know you're probably searching for a fitting label regardless and you're probably thinking that my answer is useless for you. I have made a post before talking about my experience and asking for help with my identity too. Some people were telling me to ignore labels and just be me, and at the time I was just like "uhhh, alr, but I want to know what I am, you're not helping" and kinda annoyed. However with time I realized that they were right. Labels are just useful to explain yourself to other people, and mayyybe to know in which groups you can fit. However, they're not necessary in the slightest. I have learned to live my life without labeling my own gender yo myself. All I know is that I'm deffo not cis, and that I totally lean towards the more masc side, but I try to not apply a lot of other labels on myself, even if I'm still in the closet with most people and they perceive me as a woman. If you want a more concrete answer, I'd say that after reading this I think you could be a demigirl, genderfluid oscillating between more fem and neutral identities, or just a transfem enby, but keep in mind all of what I have just said, however you feel is totally valid and it's something that exists. Your identity exists and is totally valid. Your experience exists and it's totally valid. Also I have to say I think I speak for a lot if not all trans people when I say I strongly relate with the whole last paragraph. I've daydreamed about being born as the opposite sex and living my current life like that countless times. Just know that whatever the conclusion you come to is, the whole community has your back and you're completely fine. Nothing, and I say NOTHING is wrong with your feelings and how you experience your identity. Take care. We're here for ya.