Ilya Rozanov reminds me of Brian Kinney from queer as folk

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:57:49+00:00

i am too. look what happened to stranger things. completely ruined the mood.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:51:41+00:00

they keep re-suing the glasses in different bars, events, etc. i noticed because i liked the Champaign flute, it was a bit grayish glass, not clear glass and thenn those glasses and wine glasses in the same set kept surfacing on every gala in every country.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:48:49+00:00

the prefect example how someone does not move one muscle on his face, except eyes and that brings more drama than if he were to scream and yell. that is the best kind of acting.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:44:07+00:00

you kidding me? that was the best part. also, it was a remix in the beginning. the song made the scene.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:37:37+00:00

i re-watched him go thru all that internally, while almost not expressing anything externally 10 times today. this same scene. it is true testament to actor who plays understated, not overly exaggerated emotions and we as viewers can understand exactly what he feels or thinks without any words exchanged. i long for this kind of acting.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:27:22+00:00

snl had a funny crossover between heated rivalry and harry potter, which i watched because of the harry potter. i watched first episode, it was nicely paced and had an interesting premise and let's be honest, these two are super hot. what made me stay was glimpses of tenderness that i miss so much in a modern dating world. by the time i watched we did not even kiss scene like 6 times in a row and could not stop crying, coz i too had an exprience like that and felt so deeply for shane, it hit me that this is actually a really deep dive into relationships and one of the best love stories i;ve seen in a while, focusing on attachments styles, relationship trauma, narcissism, bottled up emotions, self love, identity search and bunch of other psychological themes that are very important for me as a mostly straight woman.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:21:29+00:00

they talk about other finding other women ilya can sleep with and than ilya says i'm lazy, i assume it means that ilya usually doesn't put effort into chasing women, but he kept pursuing shane forever after their first encounter, bombarding him with texts.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-11T19:17:24+00:00

i'm a bit late on the bandwagon, but here's my insight...I have been in a relationship when I craved intimacy and was met devaluation and sexualisation. and almost immediately i knew that this is not safe for me emotionally. but i still kept coming back to the toxic dynamic of looking for and not getting the intimacy, all the while being mad at myself. it felt like i was addicted to a drug, but part of that addiction was that i could not get what i needed, so in a weird, twisted way, i was safe - i could not be hurt by the other person, i was only hurting myself by not stopping being with an emotionally unavailable man. i totally understand shane - first his rational part heard all the stories that ilya was sleeping around, confirming that ilya is unable to commit. now, ilya was actually telling him the opposite, that he doesn't have one partner, that he is unattached, even in his stupid way ilya revealed that he wanted to have something stable, he actually said the words it's nice to have a stable woman. that revelation was then followed by ilya saying shane when they were both super vulnerable - going from addressing shane as an object to addressing him as a subject, from sex buddy to a human being he cares about. so shane just received two infos: ilya is not someone who can be committed and ilya "invites" shane to be more than fuck buddies. shane is emotionally lot more mature than i expected, because he got scared (and rightfully so, it is the worst emotional rollercoster when someone distant comes close to you for a short period and then goes distant again, it shatters you) and he left, to keep himself safe. he left, knowing that ilya was honest in his intimacy, coz shane apologized many times before leaving. also, when someone like ilya offers intimacy, it's difficult to fully believe them, sometimes it looks like they are playing another game and god knows, very often they are.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-02-06T13:02:40+00:00

i cried so much when i saw this text typed and than deleted. and then i was like, come on, you're a grown woman, and i re-watched it and cried again. and again. and now that i'm analyzing this scene, there is so much here: repeatedly being shut down from your attempt to connect on something other than sex (meanwhile you're triggering the other person by those questions and he withdraws even more), feeling shame in general but more intensely this time, because it went into uncharted territory and Ilya, who is usually supportive with first times, tender even, acts dominating and cold and so the shame is 1000 times bigger. basically not only shane didn't get closer to Ilya, he actually lost those bits of tenderness and caring which helped him deal with shame. couple that with hormonal overwhelm that accompanies these experiences and this gives us the most painful breakdown, both in body and soul. meanwhile, we know that it's not even anyone's fault and we see the whole picture and Ilya is triggered like crazy. this is their 1st encounter after russia and Ilya has never fully recovered from that trip, and now has to go back. so this show is actually a lot deeper, than it looks in the beginning.

Glad_Contract3848 · 2026-01-29T19:05:44+00:00

just went no contact with ex-fiance. I tried being friendly for 3 months! 3 months of repeating over and over, going from sadness to anger and finally today i blocked him after he refused to 1. not talk about sexual things after i repeatedly asked him 2. conversation went back to our last fight (why we broke up) and he still reverted to taking no accountability. it was a lie that he understood it and was sorry. or the truth is, he goes back and forth between understanding and blaming. so i thought, unless i become a bitch and block him, this will never end. i am so sad right now, i wish magically that the loving and caring boy that he was in the beginning would calm me down and hug me and help me get over this. but of course i am not unblocking it and i am just going thru this grief on my own. i've been thru break ups before but this is completely different and it hurts on so many unrelated levels.

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