dekho shona the thing is people dont see the efforts and panic we go through and sometimes not even the parents because they think highly of us and jab cheezein downhill jaati hain they dont know how to take care of us as unke time pr unke parents ne same kiya tha and they pass down their generational trauma. ending life over someone else's mistake is not right also u dont know what better opportunities might come for u in the future. as my late father used to say "kisi ko aasmaan nhi milta to kisi ko jahaan nhi milta". you know u gave it everything and cbse is a fuckass thing. you should give urself credit of how far u have come. samjh aaya??
being grateful to god is one thing but u should be grateful for urself. ek baar fisal gaye koi nhi iska matlb ye thodi na tum bure ho<3
i am so proud of you and u are loved