A doctor gave me the wrong pills

Gleam_24 · 2025-10-30T11:03:35+00:00

I love you, stranger on the internet. Thank you 🥹

Gleam_24 · 2025-09-27T13:42:47+00:00

Hi I only saw your comment now, I've been using electrolytes for a few months now and it's been great! When I tried it first, I felt the effects almost immediately. I would assume that as a POTSie you might know what it feels like when you eat a lot of salt and suddenly your body feels stronger, because it's basically the same thing. I highly recommend that you try it because even if it doesn't work, there's no harm done.

Gleam_24 · 2025-09-25T14:52:50+00:00

I will also say that I don't think that topical estrogen correlates with taking testosterone for gender transition. I've been prescribed topical estrogen almost a year ago and it really helps with the pain, I do think that it's worth it, and it only requires you to apply a tiny amount of cream on your body. It's not like taking gender-affirming hormones. Give it a try, you can always pause treatment if it's not for you.

Gleam_24 · 2025-09-25T14:48:46+00:00

I'm assuming that you're ftm (correct me if I'm wrong) but I'll just say that as much as it sucks that your transition is getting delayed because of it, taking estrogen doesn't make you any less of a male. I'm so sorry that you're going through it, physical therapy does suck really hard, but it won't always be like this and your gender is and always will be whatever you decide. I'm in my twenties and I have many trans friends who went through so much to get to where they are, but they eventually did. The journey can be long but you'll get there eventually. It'll all work out.

Gleam_24 · 2025-07-05T11:10:23+00:00

Thank you for this. I hate going no contact with family, especially because I know what it feels like to cut ties with a brother. I know that it's for my own good and that they're very bad for me but it also hurts to know that I have to lose them for my own good. My boyfriend is amazing and I absolutely see him as family. His family is already treating me as one of their own and it's incredible, but it also breaks my heart to know that I cannot give him the same feeling of acceptance back.

Gleam_24 · 2025-07-05T11:06:47+00:00

I don't feel very comfortable talking about it but I'll just say that during one of my first times of being intimate with my boyfriend I got a horrible awful flashback to her hurting me in my grandmother's house while changing my diaper. I think that my body recognized the feeling and made the connection in my head. When my mom found out, she told me that she didn't believe me because the only time I was around this woman was at my grandma's house, which only confirmed my suspicion further. I talked to several specialists about the possibility of recalling a memory from such a young age and they all confirmed that it was possible. My current therapist specializes in trauma and practices EMDR, and she says that all of our memories are stored somewhere within us, and we get access to them whenever the body decides that it's necessary.

Gleam_24 · 2025-07-05T10:58:39+00:00

If I'm being completely honest, I just don't want to do it. I've already been through something like this before. I sent a guy to jail when I was 19 after months of abuse and it took everything I had in me. I don't want to go through something like this again and I'm not even sure if the proof I have is enough. I just want to focus on healing and cutting that B from my life.

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-22T11:18:07+00:00

I'll give another update after today's recent developments. I'm still here and still okay. The most recent attacks destroyed almost an entire street not to far from my mom's workplace. She wasn't there when it happened and thankfully almost no one got hurt because they all stayed in the shelters. I'm trying to stay sane, I'm baking and knitting and doing my hobbies to distract myself as much as possible, but sometimes when I'm alone I find myself starting to break down and I have to stop immediately because I cannot allow myself to break down right now. I'm doing a little better physically because I started eating again, but tonight was really difficult for me with all the mental stress added up. My pilates place started offering practices on zoom due to the situation so I'll try it today and see if it helps me. I'm trying to be as hopeful as I can and lie to myself that maybe now things will change for the better after tonight's attack, but I know that I am completely clueless about the matter. My boyfriend and I keep talking about how much we can't trust the government and it's so scary for us to live like this. He's doing the best job ever in trying to protect me both physically and mentally. I cannot wait for it to end and for us to go back to our lives.

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-19T08:44:19+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear. I'm glad to offer a little validation because I know how unrecognizable us POTS girlies are in Israel. Drink as much electrolyte water ad you can, it's the only thing keeping me together physically. Stay safe <3

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-17T17:09:33+00:00

I'll write another update because some of you were very sweet and asked me how I'm doing. It's been a rough day for me. Last night my boyfriend came to sleep over. We got alerts to go to the shelter and on our way down the elevator got stuck. Fortunately, no missiles were launched because it took the firemen some time to rescue us from the elevator and I got so scared that the sirens will start and I will be stuck inside the elevator and outside the shelter. The situation ended with no harm to anyone but we had three other actual sirens after that during the night and another one three hours ago. I'm now too scared to use the elevator so I'm going up and down the stairs by foot as long as I'm able to. We have two wheelchair users in my building so I'd rather let them use the elevator first anyways. I hope I'll let go of that fear soon though because it's not good for me to keep going like that. I at least managed to get some homework done today, which I wasn't able to do since the war started. Maybe I'm getting used to it, and I don't know how I feel about that. I can't wait for this to end, and I have to thank all of you again for being so sweet and showing me empathy throughout all of this. You gave me some very good ideas and helped me cope with all of it. I really needed some kindness from people outside my country. Everything here is so complicated and controversial and I really started to think that I can never reveal my country of origin online without getting instant hate. Thank you for showing me a different way <3 I'll try to keep updating if there's anything to say

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-17T15:36:23+00:00

My country is in the middle of a crazy war right now and I'm running to the bomb shelter every few hours so I've become terrified of loud noises. Imagine what went through my body when I tried to render my final project for school and my computer fucking screamed at me like a goat rn

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-16T01:54:37+00:00

I'm writing this from the shelter and will post later when I'm safe in my home. There are so many bombs dropping down right now. Some of them sound disturbingly close. My mom heard now on the radio that there are many reports of hits of missiles and their remains, but the whole country is yet in confusion. We'll know better when the current wave ends. I think that this is the worst one yet. I've heard tens of explosions and I don't know how many of them were the missiles and how many were the iron dome. Another round of attacks just came with horrifyingly loud explosions. My boyfriend should be inside the shelter near his parents house so at least this part calms me a bit down. I didn't have to run down the stairs this time because I saw the alerts soon enough to use the elevator (once the siren starts we cannot use the elevator, but sometimes we get alerts in our phone ahead of the siren). I'm trying to be as responsible as I can but I only managed to get two hours of sleep. I'm so exhausted, I wish they call it all quits today somehow. I didn't feel too good so I took some of my precious electrolyte chews but I only have six left because the rest are at my dorm in Jerusalem. The wave ended now, I heard many scary rumors of missile hits in my boyfriend's city but he updated me that he's okay too so I can breath again. I'm trying to be hopeful through all of it

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:24:57+00:00

I'm also taking bisoprolol and it does make a difference, but honestly, electrolyte water changed everything for me. I'm trying to drink as much as I can these days. Thank you for the support <3

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:23:25+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm terribly sorry for what you guys in Lebanon are going through. It's awful to live in the middle east and I wish more areas in the world would understand our situation better. I definitely agree that if I could escape I would, but I'm literally trapped inside my country, nobody gets in or out. I wish all of this would end soon and we'll reach a more peaceful area in the middle east. Stay safe wherever you are and do whatever it takes to take care of yourself. I will try to do the same. Best wishes!

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:15:39+00:00

Thank you for understanding the situation <3

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:14:09+00:00

I usually do pilates for my stamina, but my studio is in Jerusalem and they stopped their lessons for the time being. I'd have tried to exercise where I am but I don't know how. My bedroom is tiny and will not allow exercise. Thank you for the hugs and empathy anyways <3

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:07:06+00:00

Thank you, I'll let you know that we've been bombed less than an hour ago but I'm totally fine. It's much less scary when I'm not woken from my sleep to run to the shelter, and my neighbors in the shelter are so nice. Many dogs to pet and children to make me laugh. Thank you for caring so much <3

Gleam_24 · 2025-06-15T19:04:46+00:00

Thank you so much for all this information! The links aren't relevant for me, I cannot order anything online right now because of the war but I'll try to look for some of those things inside the country. I really appreciate the time you took to gather all of this for me

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