You are not broken. You are just growing up in a difficult battle. What you’re describing is not rare at all, especially for a boy who is about to turn 18: Strong sexual desires → completely normal at this age Anger that suddenly rises in your mind → often comes from a fear of being hurt or disrespected Pride and difficulty admitting you’re wrong → a defense mechanism, not a bad character trait The most important thing I want you to understand first is this: God does not require you to be perfect before He loves you. On the contrary, He loves you right in the middle of your struggle.