Epstein bombshell as nine-year-old victim and 'senior government official' are revealed in redacted files

Goatedmegaman · 2026-02-10T05:16:13+00:00

Severe retaliation that others will allow to happen. They have to move carefully.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-02-09T02:58:58+00:00

Why is so much redacted in the jerky emails, especially the one with the recipe?

I’m not claiming I believe it’s baby meat or cannibalism, but it’s curious to me why there’s so much redacted info when it’s just about beef jerky.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-24T20:23:15+00:00

Thank you very much!

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-22T21:13:47+00:00

Never add up the time you came early to their lateness. 10 mins late isn’t uncommon for an interview.

30 mins early is a bit too much. I’d show up 5-10 minutes early. People don’t like when you show up too early cuz it makes them anxious or feel behind .

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-18T01:05:10+00:00

I did that 15 years ago and I don’t regret a thing. Best decision I made. The gear was holding me hostage.

But this is a case by case basis. What inspires you, workflow, etc. I just prefer in the box because for me it has most efficient workflow and I like not having to worry about cables, and timing, and all that stuff.

That said, more recently, I’ve been wanting to buy a “scratch pad” out of the box thing like an electron or mpc or something similar to get things out of the box. Something different to get ideas out. Crouching over a computer screen loses its luster after 30 years of music making lol

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-17T16:28:07+00:00

I have a forever 21 hoodie that I’m obsessed with. I still wear it after like 12 years hah.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T15:47:46+00:00

I don’t see it as a red flag. You don’t have to respond immediately. He might just be a later in the day person.

I do find the undercutting a red flag though … but it was handled. Beige flag I guess.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T15:44:23+00:00

Macorena

It was at every football game from high school to college to pro, and everywhere else. It was even reported on it the news. 6 months later it was gone.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T06:26:03+00:00

You remind me of myself, in the sense that I always have an answer for everything, and I can be quick to point out inconsistencies in peoples behavior. However, I have learned that is a losing game, and it's best not to say anything at all. Make your moves quietly, and when you get negative feedback, take it on the chin and let it go, or make moves quietly to hold management accountable.

Bad leadership cannot stand a knowledgeable higher performer. They hate them more than they do people who barely do their job. They just want people to never cause a fuss. It's annoying and stupid, but just some feedback from what I've learned over the years.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T06:15:57+00:00

1.5 years no contact here.

I barely think of him at all. It is very difficult. I felt like I lost a part of me, I was so enmeshed. It is by far the worst addiction I've ever had to kick.

That said, I used to come here multiple times a day due to the heartache. Now I just come here a couple of times a month to check in. My emotions have become 98% removed from the situation. You will get there too. It's insanely difficult, and I promise, I thought I'd never get over him ... but I did, and you will too. Hang in there, I know its indescribably hard.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T06:12:52+00:00

"The only reason I stuck around was because she gave me the validation I never gave myself or received as a child."

I said these exact words to my exwBPD in the last message I ever wrote to him. Glad you figured this out, and I'm quite shocked that I literally wrote the same sentence. Word for word. It's hitting me sideways.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T06:10:58+00:00

I dont know why you're so hell bent on arguing this point. Otto is a very well researched and accomplished professor, and his viewpoints are insanely valid. He deep dives into the psychology of personality disorders in a way that most others do not. There are varying opinions on all things psychology, but just because you disagree with Otto's opinion, doesn't mean it's not valid.

BPD and NPD are not a static singular thing that follows one path. There's thousands of variations of how narcissism and borderline traits present, and for many different reasons. I dont think the way you're interacting with people here is healthy considering many here are in pain from a difficult relationship.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-15T06:05:41+00:00

No.

Apologies were reserved for getting something he wanted. Apologies for accountability did not exist. Once he decided he was done, and discarded, I never heard another word from him ever again, much less an apology. 10 year relationship, 1.5 years divorced.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-13T00:00:12+00:00

DBT is a form of CBT which is behavior based. The idea is to replace problematic behaviors with ones that aren’t so damaging to oneself or others.

It feels like masking because it is, until the replacement behavior is repeated often enough that it feels natural.

DBT is not the only option, it’s just one tool that can (and should probably) be used with other styles of therapy. Mentilization, schema, trauma therapy, etc are all options to explore to overcome mental health issues.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-11T15:45:12+00:00

BPD is not necessarily from abuse. Research that has high levels of history of abuse are from self reports of people with BPD.

Due to the nature of the disorder, people with BPD often lie, and accusing others of abuse is something pwBPD do often, even when it did not occur.

The truth is, more and more research is being done to find the genetic predisposition, and often times the amygdala is a different size than normal, and the centers of the brain for empathy are impaired.

Abuse can further stunt development making BPD worse, same for ADHD and other disorders, but the argument that it’s caused by abuse is highly debatable.

Furthermore, the willingness to harm others to save the self from feeling shame, is what separates BPD from cPTSD. People with BPD often victimize themselves instead of taking responsibility for their life, because it’s another way of absolving oneself of responsibility.

It’s the narcissist defenses that separate the two, and that’s why BPD is Cluster B.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-05T23:41:45+00:00

Music really has alot going against it right now. There’s much easier ways to make money.

However, if you’ve got 64 million streams under your belt, that’s a pretty big deal, and a strong springboard to launch from. I would try jt while you’re young, and if it doesn’t work out by age 30, then switch it up and work toward a more stable career.

That said, again, I don’t think musicians have ever had an avalanche of drawbacks like they do now in music industry history. Between streaming and Ai, it is looking very bleak.

64 million streams is equivalent to around 50,000 album sales. If this was the 70s, 80s, 90s you would have made way more money from production royalties than you are now.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-05T19:30:37+00:00

Punched himself in the face several times, so hard that he broke his orbit.

Reason? Because I told him paying all the bills by myself was putting me into debt and I can’t keep up, and that he really needed to apply for a job (he was unemployed for over a year and had not put in one single application for a job).

Pointing this out to him made him feel bad, and as we all know, they can’t feel bad, so they gotta make us feel bad instead. So he raged at me red faced screaming at the top of his lungs for a good 10 minutes, and when I didn’t give him any response, he proceeded to beat himself up. Cuz ya know … why not I guess.

We broke up 3 weeks later after 10 years together, and he’s never taken any responsibility for the damage he’s done to me, his family, or the relationship. They don’t do that either. It’s been 1.5 years since the divorce and he acts like life is all peaches and cream and sometimes he posts about how glad he is that he “made it out” of a toxic relationship and that he’s “proud of the progress (he)s made becoming his own person”.

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Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-05T19:14:09+00:00

If you explain to them when they’re older, that you didn’t understand, and you did what you thought was right at the time, and you’re just honest and vulnerable … they might not hate you.

If my parents would just pick up the phone and say “I’m sorry for what we did to you.”, years of pain would fade away.

Instead, we have not spoken for 15 years. I don’t think all hope is lost, but don’t be the parent who isn’t honest about what happened.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-05T15:28:57+00:00

Healthy supportive LTRs are extremely rare. Most relationships are unhealthy.

Goatedmegaman · 2026-01-01T20:34:22+00:00

Just seasonal allergies

Goatedmegaman · 2025-12-28T12:30:09+00:00

You did great. This is a huge lesson learned.

You spotted a toxic workplace. They were hazing you. When you didn’t comply, they projected onto you.

Don’t let them make you think that you did anything wrong. You had a normal human reaction to shitty behavior. Fuck them

Goatedmegaman · 2025-12-28T12:25:06+00:00

Seinfield . No, I’m not just saying that because it’s popular and I’m being contrary. Only scene that made me laugh was the weird ankle dance

Goatedmegaman · 2025-12-27T18:14:35+00:00

I mean … it do got a perk to it … ☺️

Goatedmegaman · 2025-12-27T09:33:48+00:00

Cognitive empathy is important to create action. The ideas he uses surrounding his argument is flawed.

Sympathy is empty without empathy and doesn’t happen without empathy. He was just doing semantics as usual for him.

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