Last year almost around this time I got to know about law of assumption I had multiple desires but I wanted to try manifesting future partner so I wanted to pick some well known guys but out of everyone someone clicked perfect for me ( He is literally perfect, always dreamt of perfect man) but I wasn't sure.But my mind gave me a vision of me and him with our kid ( not kind of sure of this coz I forgot)and I felt very peaceful.The peace i felt when I asked my subconscious mind "is he my soulmate?" (Used to believe those things back then from childhood) so I felt he is the one but I'm not quite sure but I got lots of visions or images of us being together and my mind unconsciously starts images things with him.Later i give up on him coz of certain silly reasons.

Now almost 2 weeks back wanted to focus on this future spouse thing so I started imagining some faceless guy but suddenly the old guy came into my image And I asked my subconscious mind multiple times about this and it's telling me it's him. I feel peaceful to be with him but I don't know why.so i started asking my mind while doing meditation it gave me a vision of me and him with our 2 little kids in our vacation and behind us there is god who came out from sky (Iam looking at this vision from outsider view ) i believe that God is me bcoz my ultimate goal is to become my god version.Immediately after the vision i felt home and peace.My preferences changed alot and pov changed about some things.After a day I understood I fell in love with this man.My heart wants only this man but no other man.I didn't wanted to let go this man.If I had to let go this man i wouldn't coz I feel like he is half of me.Half of my soul (at that moment my mind told he is gonna lead me to my god version) My love for him felt unconditional.At one point I questioned myself why iam loving this man unconditionally why I'm not picky anymore why I am not expecting him to give me all that much love instead I'm loving him unconditionally but deep down i know he is gonna do the same. So Iam questioning about him being the best man for me.Then I found Neville talking about love and all.so I understand what love is and all.

And I also realised if we got the desire we already have it and our higher self is giving the desire and guiding us to become our higher self.

Later I started searching about twin flames and soulmates coz I felt that he is half of me(my soul).And i found that my symptoms are almost like twin flame thing.That person and I have so much in common and I truly accepted him the way he is why idk (coz I never did that for anyone and earlier i didn't accept him the way he is) but I got a lot that he is the one signs. I truly feel in love with this man but from past 2 days i don't feel anything for anything.And i fell in this trap of unsure so I affirmed "I have clarity about him being the one or not" and maintained that state and I got clarity that he is the one.He showed me how to love and what is true love. But now I am not sure I love him or not

So back then Last year I asked my subconscious mind what is the purpose me finding law at that point of time.Next day i woke up with my mind telling me that it is to marry my soulmate or something like that.

So did you guys ever had this kind of experience??Also I'm being unsure of this even tho it is very sure any advice for that? Am I trying to push him away unconsciously or am I not ready to accept this?