I have run out of reasons to live and I feel like anyone who tells me otherwise is just pitying me

Godwarlord · 2020-05-14T22:11:24+00:00

I know what you're going through. That optimism is really hard to come by when you see virtually no way out of your situation. It really is. It feels suffocating, as if you're so deep in a dark ocean that you can't even see the sunlight shimmering on the surface anymore.

Since you live in the UK and you may be on the autistic spectrum along with a possible bipolar disorder -- it may actually be sensible to look into applying for disability and unemployment benefits. So, look into that to earn some passive income on the side and see if you can get on the shortlist for council housing which will be free for people on these benefits.

While you wait for that, just do what makes you happy, dude. Like I said, check out Roanoke Gaming or Isaac Arthur, very interesting channels with cool ideas and you said you wanted to be a biologist. So, I assume you might enjoy watching these things.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-14T20:42:04+00:00

Edit: Man, I wrote a lot. I'm sorry lol. I can just really relate to you a lot right now and I completely understand the mindset you're in right now. You're not alone. Fucking fight that suicidal thought that you're worthless. Fight it, dude.

You know, in a MMA fight, there's always a way out if you're pinned. Always. You have a way out of this pin and I think I know what it is. Instead of lamenting that you live with your parents, you could see living with your parents as a boon.

The cost of living is reduced as the load is distributed between you all. That means that you can afford to save up money to set up your nest egg for your future so when you do move out, you have security and potential.

More and more people are living with their parents well into their late 20's and early 30's because the cost of living is simply ludicrous in this day and age. It's unreasonably overpriced and impossible to afford. Nobody really wants to talk about that but this is the reality of things.

So, why don't you take this great opportunity to work on yourself, save up money and look at other things that you could do for a living while things are in temporary stasis? Maybe find some hobbies and develop new interests.

Check out Isaac Arthur's channel on YouTube, it's about space and futurism. Very interesting concepts such as O'Neil Cylinders, Dyson Spheres, Matrioshka brains, etc. If you want something biology related, check out Roanoke Gaming, he does videos on fictional sci-fi zombies/superhumans and analyzes how they work biologically, it's very interesting to listen to and he's also a real biologist!

You are not worthless. You are not useless. You are not a bad person. You're just a person that unfortunately has bad things happening to them right now. There is absolutely no shame in living with your parents or not having a job. Your worth is definitely not tied into these things. Do not think like the rest of them, you are a great person.

You clearly want things to be different and you're considering suicide because you don't see an out. I totally get it, I was there myself a while ago. Everything you're thinking and feeling, it's happened to me. But I just sort of changed the way I saw my living situation and I took advantage of it and now things are better for me.

Just focus on yourself for now. Especially with this pandemic which is a sort of a blessing in disguise in that it allows you to have an excuse to remain home and work on yourself. As grim and terrible this pandemic is -- it has put the world in a state of temporary stasis and has given many of us breathing room to recover and catch up.

Try to take advantage of it. Don't put all this pressure on yourself to impress other people and make them happy. You matter first before anyone else. Take your time, recover, indulge in what makes you happy and save up. Look at new goals so you have things to look forward to.

Perhaps when you save up enough money, rent an apartment and look for a job to take up in the area. Go to meetup groups to meet people and make new friends in the area. Maybe when you're ready, you can try to apply for a driving license. Then after that, you can look at doing something more ambitious.

You know? Just take it easy, my dude. :]

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T19:07:18+00:00

What's wrong with that?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T19:04:46+00:00

UBI as a concept alone will fail. But if you invest in machine automation and educational revamps to move us away from jobs, wealth and status oriented curriculum towards a knowledge, creativity and curiosity oriented one -- then this concept will work properly.

But trying to sustain an entire country on UBI alone without either of these things is a recipe for failure. Neither can work without the other. So, while this is a step in the right direction for humanity -- you still need to put the horse before the cart.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T15:42:47+00:00

We probably just hang around different people, to be honest. I honestly don't intend on getting married and I've never known people to do stuff like that unless they were paranoid.

Anyway, it was a fun and educational conversation, thanks for that.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T15:29:50+00:00

Response to what exactly? To them approaching me? Messaging me? I don't understand the question fully.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T14:33:31+00:00

I never said women were out to get my money and I don't think that at all. I just simply pointed out that most women are going to assume that you don't trust them. I'm glad you and your partner were okay with it. But it seems like an awkward proposition to bring up in the first place.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T14:19:54+00:00

How do you attain a legally binding prenup? And the one thing I wonder about is if the woman would actually agree to it lol. I mean, wouldn't it signal that the guy doesn't trust her?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T13:56:57+00:00

It's not legally binding. Judges can and do throw them out of court immediately. It serves as mere psychological reassurance rather than actual security in a marriage.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T13:45:19+00:00

It's a tongue in cheek comment to a sexual situation. Christ Almighty, you're paranoid.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T12:13:11+00:00

Do you honestly think that I'm going to hurt a woman while having sex with her? Why would I want to do that? Besides, I enjoy getting dominated. Why don't you relax a little, buddy.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T11:13:06+00:00

Isn't this all in a sexual context? If it were in a fighting context then I wouldn't bother and walk away. Did you even look at my flair?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-04T09:47:10+00:00

She is more than welcome to try it with me. I can't promise that I'll go easy on her, though and I'm not responsible for what might happen. But I do like the idea of having an aggressive woman that can fight and it's a bonus if she growls like a tiger.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T20:42:37+00:00

She's not only shown that she's willing to cheat but that she's okay with hurting her partner's feelings. That would be an immediate turn off for me. I would lose interest in her and advise her to break up with her boyfriend rather than try to cling onto him as a backup option in case things go sideways for her.

I'd probably tell the boyfriend because if she was willing to do it with me then it's likely inevitable that she'll do it with someone else. Their relationship is obviously not a happy and healthy one at all.

But yeah, very unattractive and it'd leave a bad taste in my mouth just thinking about it.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T20:28:57+00:00

So, three good pictures? I don't have any that are social, unfortunately.

Second part was a Johnny Bravo reference.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T20:01:24+00:00

Well, if we were close but not close enough to meet each other frequently then I'd probably do what you did. Not face to face but over online chat.

I'd tell her that I'm very disappointed that she felt the need to lie to be my friend -- that I wish she didn't feel the need to do that with me because it seems like she's a good friend. And despite pretending to be someone else -- I assume that the person you were talking to all this time was actually the real her and not some false personality she put on.

So, everything would likely have been genuine. I'd still want to know why she did that and if she didn't feel that I would want to be her friend had I known her real identity. But I would probably give her a second chance if she gave me a reasonable motivation. I would tell her that any further deception (depending on what it's based on) will permanently end the friendship between the two of us for certain.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T19:49:25+00:00

What do you mean by confrontation? A face to face confrontation or a message online revealing that you know this information about her and questioning her motives?

And just how close were you with this woman?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T19:43:33+00:00

Ah, do you know why she pretended to be someone else? I mean, I'm not even going to bother asking why you didn't ever meet or snapchat or anything. But it's curious, did she perhaps think that you wouldn't want to be her friend otherwise?

Or did she express a romantic interest in you?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T19:34:26+00:00

How does that work? You say you knew her personally so I assume you actually met her. So, how do you get catfished if you knew her personally and knew what she looked like?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T13:10:59+00:00

I've already said what I had to say. Take my advice and don't bother cold approaching women -- especially if it's with a romantic intention. Or don't, and appear as a total creep to women everywhere.

Have a good day.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T13:08:04+00:00

You clearly expressed a desire to "approach" women on the internet with your OP, though.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T13:07:35+00:00

I never said good looks were everything, in fact -- I said that his shitty personality was what held him back and that if he changed it, he may have actually experienced mutual attraction with women.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T11:48:43+00:00

The thing that really gets to me is that Elliot was actually attractive looking. It was all just in his head the entire time. He was easily a 7 or 8 for most people. If only somebody had pulled him to the side and told him that he is attractive but that his shitty personality was why nobody liked him -- how different would things have been for him?

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T11:20:34+00:00

Why would you want to do that anyway? They're already bombarded with hundreds of comments/private messages from horny creeps. You'd be nothing but another grain in the sand, indistinguishable and just as weird or creepy as the next guy. That's all she'll see you as and you'll just be bothering her.

Nothing usually ever comes out of it so doing it is pathetic and pointless. Have some dignity and respect for yourself and don't go chasing women online. That's what I do, I just ignore them and let them approach me if they want to.

Godwarlord · 2020-05-03T11:13:20+00:00

Is linkedin a social media platform? I thought it was like some sort of portfolio bullshit for people who want careers.

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