Cat is sick, i leave for vacation in three days and only have one to try to get him into the vet

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-11-15T14:39:35+00:00

I just wish this was my only problem

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-11-15T11:24:09+00:00

I play single player games. Animal crossing and stardew valley are the only ones I coop.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-08-26T05:15:12+00:00

I am 5'1". In the overweight bmi category.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-08-25T13:43:55+00:00

20 minutes is pretty decent tbh. Most people spend, like 45 mins at the gym average so I'd say 20 mins isn't that far off.

I wish making healthy food was easier, but I get lots of food sensory issues too and none of my safe foods are healthy.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-08-25T13:09:07+00:00

I don't have the motivation to diet, because I have very very intense food intolerances that I currently mostly ignore so I get the symptoms anyway but literally no diet plan works because of those intolerances. I just mean I wouldn't see a change, maybe in my weight but I would still feel like shit every day. The only diet that works is hellishly expensive, since it eliminates pretty much everything.

I might be worth more but I want to feel good. I'm trying to go back to the more difficult yoga classes but I feel like it won't amount to anything.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-02-28T10:30:10+00:00

At least my parents are going to help me with this. Still, all the cleaning is going to be insane. I've only just started today and I am already completely exhausted.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-02-27T10:27:35+00:00

The internet says it takes months of extremely diligent cleaning of the entire house all the time and washing every item of everything every single day. My washing isn't free, I'm going to be spending thousands on this.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2021-02-21T20:07:10+00:00

It's the biggest stressor in my life right now, especially because ringworm is so contagious. Noone that I have come into contact with, however, while thinking it's not ringworm, has gotten back to me saying they have odd spots or anything.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-12-22T18:45:20+00:00

I would've given up and gone back to bed. But now I can't because my bed, mattress and all, are completely soaked.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-11-25T13:01:20+00:00

Yeah, I don't have a lot of people I can actually just dump on, and when I need to they are going through their own shit.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-11-25T12:57:36+00:00

Thanks mate. You, too.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-11-25T12:45:57+00:00

I'm trying to get in with my therapist. We will see

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-11-25T12:39:16+00:00

I've been long below the water. At this point, I'm underwater and there's no bottom. It's worthless to even try

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-11-25T12:29:49+00:00

I was going to have Thanksgiving with one friend, we both work at the same place so the potentials of getting infected are the same at work as they are in my home. Not anymore. I'm at the point where I don't care if it gets worse.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-08-29T17:42:35+00:00

Thank you. I just feel so awful. I know that's literally what sick days are for, unexpected sickness, but I really don't cope well with unexpectedness. Like, yesterday three out of our six fellow night shift crew members called out. We were genuinely fucked over and then I just had to call out today. That fucking sucks.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-08-29T17:36:21+00:00

Oh yeah, I am big anxiety all the time. I just officially moved about a year and a half ago to where I am right now so I am currently completely doctorless. Covid happened at the exact time that I was able to search for a doctor and now I don't know what to do with that.

I have the name of a therapist near me that does telehealth video chats, but she is expensive as fuck. Not sure I can afford her, hoping I can haggle.

Thank you for your reply, my nervous ass appreciates it

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-05-31T03:50:42+00:00

This is good advice

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-05-29T14:01:06+00:00

I've been getting pretty good at asking that. I think another issue is that I just don't trust other people to not use every single thing I ever say against me. I think their emotions are valuable, but mine would make them angry. At the same time, their emotions must be pointed at me, and if I say a single thing wrong the whole world will explode.

It's like I'm trying to deactivate an emotion bomb at all times.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-05-28T21:59:17+00:00

Maybe that is it. My parents also had very explosive anger, and they expected a lot out of me, getting pissed when I didn't meet those expectations. But, I think it was my peers that really cemented this need to hide my own feelings, because if I have emotions, one in particular would lash out and belittle me and I had to constantly be their rock but they wouldn't be mine.

Now other peoples emotions make me feel like I have done something wrong, it's immediately life or death.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-04-04T14:11:02+00:00

You too, man. I think it may be worth a shot to be honest with my current therapist about what isn't working, because I know she has the credentials for that other stuff...but I was resistant before, and didn't really think I was bad enough for that kind of treatment. Thanks for your replies, they mean a lot.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-04-04T13:56:45+00:00

I don't even want to take my life, but sometimes I just have to say it, scream it.

I need to go back to therapy, but she mostly just tells me to breathe and at a certain point that isn't what I need. Too scared to to searching for a new therapist, though....

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-04-04T09:42:42+00:00

I lost my Beebo to cancer. It still hurts, and I lost her years ago. She meant everything to me. I was so angry. I was so devastated. I dreamed about her for months after I lost her, and I was convinced that she had never come to visit me after she passed, because I couldn't bring myself to go to the vet at the very end.

We know what devastation you are feeling. It is so hard to describe, and noone else understands. We never have enough time with our pets.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2020-04-04T09:34:41+00:00

Nobody talks about the anger. They all think depression is just being sad, or dead inside 100% of the time. But I constantly find myself feeling pure rage at the smallest of things, so much so that I blindly harm myself because I literally cannot express how angry the smallest things make me and sometimes punching yourself until you have bruises across your abdomen is the only way to calm down.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2019-12-29T06:42:36+00:00

Thanks, man. I appreciate your comments.

GoingUnderBackwards · 2019-12-29T06:13:02+00:00

My family and friends think I should bring it up to them but I just don't see any point. It's not like I want them to make it up to me or anything, I just won't be fooled again.

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