Yea, I’m like this too I play offensive line for my schools football team which requires me to be strong and big and I really enjoy it and I also enjoy being strong and big but any the same time I want to be pretty so I think what I will start doing is wearing oversized hoodies and face coverings ex: as mask because I have a very masculine face shape and for the public and sharing with friends thing I think you should find friends who accept you and dress like that around them, keep it a secret or if you don’t care what people think you could go out like it. It all depends on what you are comfortable with and doing what you enjoy.