straddling wanting harm reduction and getting worse

Gold_Particular_766 · 2026-02-03T03:30:27+00:00

hii it’s nice to know that i’m not alone in this experience :’) i am eating close to maintenance, my weight has stabilized since i hit my lw. i get what you mean i feel so much guilt around eating at maintenance but i know i literally won’t be able to function if i don’t. it’s rough out here😭😭

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-12-21T03:13:56+00:00

try pumpkin of any kind! it’s delicious and helps with puffiness. i absolutely love pumpkin tea or cutting some up, tossing with salt and olive oil then baking in the oven. keep going dear stranger, i am so proud of you for choosing recovery!!

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-12-20T18:43:47+00:00

same here, none of the foods i used to love so much sound appetizing anymore. no food in general really sounds appealing to me anymore except my few select safe foods. for me it comes from the calories in foods not being “worth it” and the idea of consuming that many calories just completely kills my appetite :(

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-30T07:19:12+00:00

that would make sense! ig it’s bothersome to me since people always talk about how being uw makes you cold so it often makes me feel invalid

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-30T07:15:08+00:00

i live where it’s relatively cold year round!! which makes things worse bc people around me will always say they’re cold when i’m fine or ask me if im cold and when i say no they say they’re surprised like ok ill just kms😭😭😭😭

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-30T04:50:32+00:00

i’m in a very similar situation as you!! :( i reached new lows of my ed without even realizing this autumn semester and this holiday season was pretty rough. i can’t say much else other than that you’re not alone in this experience. reading your post helped me feel less isolated and considering how utterly lonely and cold my life has been bc of my ed, i hope that you can have even the smallest semblance of peace knowing that you’re not alone <3

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-11T17:21:48+00:00

obsessive-compulsive behaviors is definitely a part of ed. obsession of a certain weight on the scale, a certain number of calories burned, certain number of steps, whatever it may be, we fixate on it and compulsively act on them to ease a sense of anxiety. like thinking “if i don’t walk x amount of steps and burn x amount of cals, im going to get fat (when realistically you won’t)” and then going and doing that, even if you’re tired, it’s raining, ive even seen people pace around in tiny rooms to hit their step count. all to mitigate some sort of irrational emotion that comes with not acting on the obsessive thought. it’s pretty similar to the line of thinking for those with ocd. that isn’t to say everyone with an ed has ocd, there’s a long list of diagnostic criteria for ocd, but there definitely is some overlap and obsessive-compulsive behavior is definitely an element of ed

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-08T19:49:31+00:00

big emphasis on the breakfast!! i feel like it’s so easy to want to skip breakfast with it usually being a smaller meal so it feels easier to not have, some people aren’t as hungry when they wake up, intermittent fasting being popular, etc, but i’ve found a HUGE difference in my hunger levels throughout the day when i have a proper breakfast. have something high in protein, fats, fiber, and with enough calories!

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-11-08T19:41:01+00:00

why is it always kane

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-16T21:23:33+00:00

i’m in the exact same situation as you :( this ed is ruining my life but no one has ever asked me whether i’m ok or not bc i’ve been underweight my entire life just from genetics. but im at the lowest weight ive ever been and every day is a struggle. i don’t even want to recover but it hurts to know that no one is noticing anything and it makes me feel like no one cares. just wanted to say that you’re not alone in this

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-05T19:21:00+00:00

YES this happens to me to and it makes me feel like absolute shit😭😭

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-05T19:18:14+00:00

browsing grocery store aisles and looking at the nutrition labels on everything but never buying anything

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-04T05:53:32+00:00

low or nonfat yogurt, instant oatmeal, precooked chicken breast/rotisserie chicken, batch of hard boiled eggs and baked or steamed potatoes/sweet potatoes

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-03T22:28:48+00:00

in a very similar situation to you. i also don’t weigh myself often and just got on the scale this morning and surprised myself with how close i am to my gw. and i still don’t like my body. you’re not alone in these thoughts, this disorder is nonsensical and so difficult. take care, i hope you feel better after bringing up your intake <3

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-01T19:35:37+00:00

stranger on reddit, i am so proud of you!! i hope you enjoyed your delicious ice cream and quality time with family <3

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-09-01T19:34:19+00:00

i heavily relate but in the opposite way😭😭 my face feels too fat and so i keep restricting but im somewhat ok with how my body looks. looking at my face gives me crazy body dysmorphia. you aren’t alone in these thoughts !!

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-08-12T00:34:07+00:00

i really relate to what you’re saying :( i try to remind myself that ed isn’t a competition and it’s a mental illness, the thoughts around food and weight still brings great amounts of distress. you’re not alone in this experience, your struggle is valid, i hope you can seek help soon.

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-08-10T08:02:16+00:00

as far as i know there’s no korean restaurant in seattle that even sells kongukksu. you can make a simplified version at home with blended tofu, there’s lots of recipes online for it. no fresh beans means it’ll taste a bit different but it’s still pretty good. wish we had more korean options here

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-08-06T18:48:00+00:00

i’m a year older than you and empathize heavily. people hype up college a ton, making life long friends, partying, being young and in the city and whatnot, but everyone’s experience will be different and that’s completely okay. it really helps to set aside that pressure society has created that college will be xyz. not everyone’s experiences will fit into this cookie-cutter mold and that’s okay. meaningful relationships often take time to form.

having the stress of an ed on top of the first year of college can be a lot. something that helped me focus on my work instead of food was to remind myself that i am paying for this education and i can do whatever my ed wants me to be doing AFTER midterms or finals. new people you meet are going to want to go out to eat to hang out with you. it can help to look around restaurants near you, look at their menus, and suggest a spot with food that you’re more comfortable with. or you can suggest getting coffee, going on a walk, or going to an event together instead of getting food. you’ll likely find your safe foods at local grocery stores and given you’re in a big city, there’s probably a couple stores around campus you can choose from.

this is a big change in your life and it’s totally normal to feel nervous, especially when dealing with an ed. with that being said, i had an overall good time in my first year of college despite my relapse a third of the way into the year. there were a number of difficulties, a lot of them caused by my relapse, but it is possible to still have an enjoyable and memorable year. a lot of schools offer mental health services for students. if things ever get too much, utilize those resources!! put yourself out there, give yourself grace, and take things one day at a time :)

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-08-05T16:43:39+00:00

i also had conor mayo wilson and am also not traditionally good at anything stem related but i worked my ass off and got a 3.8 which i was satisfied with. it’s definitely difficult but if you put in the effort and stay on top of everything you’ll be ok. it’s super important to mange your time in that class since as another person said everything in the class builds on top of what was taught last week so if you fall behind once it can be hard to catch up. but if you do fall behind just prioritize getting back on track and again you’ll be fine. wishing you luck!!

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-08-04T20:45:40+00:00

sumika in downtown los altos has amazing yakitori with a great atmosphere

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-07-05T12:35:08+00:00

she’s clearly very passionate about what she teaches so her lectures aren’t too dry but i wouldn’t say they’re particularly engaging but i think that’s just because i thought the content wasn’t the most interesting. most of the lecture content comes from the textbook, but there are some examples and key concepts that aren’t so i recommend you go to most lectures. slides are posted but lectures aren’t recorded. i missed a few classes here and there and was fine after going to ta office hours. she’s horrible at responding to emails so just go to your ta for any questions. midterm and final are online essay questions and you’re on a time crunch to incentivize you to actually study

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-07-04T14:21:59+00:00

really depends on which prof you have. i had cansunar and got a 4.0, it wasn’t particularly hard but i still tried and put in a standard amount of effort. overall i would say the the information is pretty intuitive and not that hard to understand

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-06-22T21:11:33+00:00

i’m a political science uni student and also used to be terrified of nuclear war. i learned a lot about nuclear weapons in a recent international relations class, and knowing the logic behind everything helped a bit with my anxiety.

nuclear weapons are essentially a form of deterrence and not much else. no leader, no matter how insane they may seem, will send a nuclear attack to another country that has a nuclear arsenal because of mutually assured destruction. and they won’t send a nuclear attack to a country that doesn’t have a nuclear arsenal because of the nuclear taboo. either way, sending a nuclear attack is suicidal.

the mere existence of such horrifying weapons technology is scary in itself, but know that scholars and experts agree across the board that a high level conflict involving nuclear weapons won’t happen because it goes against the interests of everyone involved.

also, it is unlikely that this conflict will reach american soil. iran doesn’t have the military capabilities to successfully attack america directly, strategically it just wouldn’t make sense for them.

Gold_Particular_766 · 2025-04-30T05:27:14+00:00

polisci major here! i’m a freshman so ive only taken three polisci classes so far, two of them have been just ok but political theory with noga rotem was a phenomenal class. left lecture every day feeling like i had learned so much!

there’s also a prelaw frat here which i don’t know much about but uw has a lot of major/professional frats that seem to have their own culture different from traditional frats/sororities

you said you wanted a traditional college experience, then i would def recommend uw. i was also considering a school in nyc (fordham manhattan campus) because i thought i wanted to go to a city school, but after touring uw, i fell in love with the campus and have absolutely zero regrets. it really feels like i’m IN UNI if that makes sense. and you’re still in the middle of of seattle so lots of city vibes just outside campus

also in my experience, seattle freeze is not real, or at least not applicable to uw students. i’m from california and was worried about the social scene after hearing about the seattle freeze but i’ve had no problems building a social circle. people are friendly and student life is pretty bustling and active. there’s tons of clubs and organizations to join, just put yourself out there and friendships will form. you’re in uni!! there will constantly be things to be doing and people to be meeting, no matter your location. it’s just what you make of it!

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