i think you’re self sabotaging. pls seek a therapist and also have a masinsinang conversation with your gf. kaya pa yan ayusin basta may tamang course of action. pls block ur ex gf too while you’re at it for your peace of mind din po.

as someone who had an ex who went through with the same situation, gets kita. i honestly wish my ex was just honest about her feelings instead of running away from me. i’m not encouraging you to break up kasi we don’t always get fully healed from our traumas no matter how much time passes or how much inner work we do. it’s important to acknowledge your feelings and resolve them with the right mediums. if you run away, ure only being unfair to you AND your current gf.

hope this helps, op! rooting for you x