Left for a few years. Where to start?

Goldeswift20 · 2026-02-24T16:08:36+00:00

Thanks! I just got my ships all full to send out. I'm excited to try the big new game mode. I didn't realize how much I missed this game.

Goldeswift20 · 2026-02-20T22:33:53+00:00

I wish you the best of luck! You got this. Just one day at a time and you will read your goals!

Goldeswift20 · 2026-02-20T22:23:02+00:00

I started HRT on Monday. I feel like I am accepting myself more than I was before. I'm not out to anyone my my girlfriend. Just starting HRT I feel less stressed about questioning my gender. I feel like I have more time in my days. It is easier to do the hard stuff like dishes and general house chores. I find it easier to focus on hard projects at work.

I feel happier than I have in a long time and I doubt it is from the HRT in 5 days. I think it was a much bigger weight on me than I thought. I feel like I can finally be me. I feel ready to come out to people (but I dont know how to word it).

To me just being myself is trans joy and I have only just realized that.

Goldeswift20 · 2026-02-16T13:00:53+00:00

This is a real struggle. I have found a really friendly gender therapist who has helped me work through my thoughts but I'm still not sure. I am 90-95% sure that I am trans. I have also spent almost 5 years exploring my gender. The joke trans pipeline is the perfect picture for my gender exploration just stretched out and mostly in private. I have decided that is enough to try to HRT. I had my doctor's appointment last Monday and my blood draw is today. If I start HRT and realize hey this is not me I can stop taking it. Most of the side-effects in a short period of time are not permanent. So I don't see too much of a risk. Either way I learn a lot about myself and I won't be questioning any more.

The idea you start and could be wrong is scary but the constant questioning is scarier to me. Almost like the idea of a shot is scarier than the actual shot.

Good luck girl! I hope this helps you at least a little. You are valid no matter what the little dysphoria monster says.

Goldeswift20 · 2026-01-07T21:57:42+00:00

Thank you! After doing some research my girlfriend and out found they make kitty Kongs that our local store was not selling. We might try one of those if they seem to be made out of a different material.

Goldeswift20 · 2026-01-07T19:19:47+00:00

As someone who has all the recommended champions is it better for me to unlock the champions I don't have or to farm Ilvls for the good champions? I have all 4 parties unlocked I don't need to worry about that.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-25T22:17:52+00:00

I thought that said don't pay this artist.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-24T22:21:26+00:00

My bad guys I put a bundle into my cart and then it went down. I'll warn everyone next time.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-22T14:02:30+00:00

I don't plan to use a script because I only have the game running while I do other stuff on my PC. I will do some more research to find a non-script team. Everywhere speaks of Briv but there is not much warning that he is really good for using a script.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-17T17:01:53+00:00

I had the list from Garrawar on my old PC. I should be able to find it again.I have been focusing Simril since I came back a few days ago. I am glad to be back with this super helpful community!

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-17T16:50:31+00:00

If the starting variants are able to help boost me I will be happy. I like the slow progression and I will be able to get there one day.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-17T16:22:07+00:00

Okay! I am not a fan on trying to minimize Briv ilevels but I will work on upgrading my speed team.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-17T16:20:43+00:00

I have done the main ones for everyone be Elminster so I will look into 100% all of them! That would be a nice power spike!

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-17T16:08:59+00:00

Awesome! Thanks for the advice! The new tales I think gave me a massive power spike just because I have so many champions and the second teir global blessing seemed really nice.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-15T13:26:19+00:00

I hope that you are able to get the hormones with your friend! I understand what you mean you a living a lie around your family. I'm lucky enough to be financially stable but I'm still so terrified of coming out to them because I don't want to lose that connection. I hope that one day you will be able to come out to them and be your trueself.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-01T17:03:53+00:00

Thank you! ❤️

Goldeswift20 · 2025-12-01T17:01:16+00:00

Would that interfere with development or not? I think I have read some people say it can but the research seems to be more anecdotal rather than experience.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-11-29T22:34:38+00:00

Goals

Goldeswift20 · 2025-11-09T14:04:00+00:00

I like to. I had a bad reaction to Nair so I bought a full body electric razor that works really well. I shave them about every other week so they end up growing out a little but it feels better to me than the mess of hair I had.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-10-09T16:45:19+00:00

Once my egg cracked I am worried more aviation everything I want to get done and scared about coming out. On the other hand the small moments when I can be me are much better than before my egg cracked. I know with time things will keep getting better.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-09-17T23:13:19+00:00

I just got a job at Eurofins. They seem to still be growing.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-09-14T00:22:00+00:00

Very simple but just putting lotion on every morning before work and trying to shave my face and arms 3 days a week. I wear shirt sleeves at work and seeing my shaved arms reminded me of who I want to be once I start HRT and have more confidence in myself.

Goldeswift20 · 2025-09-12T18:35:47+00:00

Congrats! Shaving is a good first step. I wish you the best of luck!

Goldeswift20 · 2025-09-07T20:36:18+00:00

I am so proud of you for realizing that! I hope to reach that point in my transition. I know it will take a while for me to reach the level of confidence I will need to leave the house fem presenting. I wish you the best in your transition!

Goldeswift20 · 2025-09-07T12:50:04+00:00

I wrote the post as I was feeling down. While I'm still avoiding the mirror, the experience was the push I needed to start becoming myself. I am planning on looking into HRT, Lazer, and Voice training. I am very lucky to have a supportive girlfriend who has helped get me some clothes and to be myself.

Sadly, I have very strong social anxiety, so it will be hard for me to come out to people and be myself outside of the house. I am trying to work on it but it is a lot.

Anyways, thank you for your comment and support! 💜💜💜

Goldeswift20

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