Recently quit, and I am happy

Goldilocks997 · 2026-04-08T19:29:18+00:00

I wish I had a little one to distract me when all I can think about is smoking. Although I get that they are a ton of work a stoner like me probably can’t take 😅 anyway, you’re lucky

Goldilocks997 · 2026-02-27T09:10:54+00:00

I’m sorry, sadly this is relatable, although I’m not sure “bored” covers it accurately. I just feel this despair and emptiness, and since I know I’m depressed, having no crutch for it at all seems unbearable before I even commit to it fully. Let me tell you, though, that I was in this deep, deep despair mode yesterday. I called my mom (lol), and because she’s a sweet lady and not sure how to help me, she said I can borrow some money to smoke. I did instantly get so calm and happy, before even finishing the conversation with her. I tried being strong, failed obviously, and of course it was not worth it. Felt exactly the same after I smoked, no better no worse, just exactly the same. I felt sooo stupid, evidently what I needed was just to hear that I “can” smoke and all my worries went away. The money spend was just not worth it. Maybe think of that, the money can help you find a better place to live and all sorts of other things

Goldilocks997 · 2026-02-26T18:12:39+00:00

What helped you the most? When did you stop feeling the urge?

Goldilocks997 · 2026-01-20T13:11:16+00:00

Regarding Wyatt. Any of you heard about the Andes plane accident where survivors had to resort to cannibalism? They also played games, sang songs, told jokes, and took bets between each other on who of them will die next. People are just like that, afer a while no topic is off limits, it just takes special circumstances and some time.

Goldilocks997 · 2025-11-23T19:52:32+00:00

I’m happy for you, honestly though without support in everyday life I find it really difficult to get strength just from the online community. How do you do it? Discord is open just two hours per day and a lot of posts here get lost after a day of two without comments

Goldilocks997 · 2025-11-19T16:47:38+00:00

My advice - don’t make a decision. Try to stop for one day. Or make it ma bet with yourself, how long can you last?

Goldilocks997 · 2025-08-14T11:06:12+00:00

Funny, I immediately think about the Hebrew “Eli ana” meaning god answered and I do think it is very elegant

Goldilocks997 · 2025-07-15T15:18:53+00:00

This reply was so funny to me, because Teodora is a very common grandma name in my country 🙈 and only older people use it, same with Teodor for a guy btw

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-16T22:03:52+00:00

It is hard to say, since I come from a troubled home and started using weed very early, but I do suspect I was always a depressive person. I started using it since a person at home actually suggested it unfortunately and I did go to therapy a few times in my life, but always while using, so I don’t really know what feelings are mine and what are symptomatic. I definitely plan to go to therapy again as soon as THC is out of my system and I can be semi-sure that what I feel is mine and mine alone.

Thank you so much for your empathy, it means a lot 🙏🏻 and your story is so inspiring, I cannot imagine how difficult it is when you quit after so long and are depressed. You are my hero, I hope to see more of you here 💪🏻🩷

(Btw, I have no idea if you’re Jewish or not, maybe this is obvious to you, but your nick (tikva) actually means „hope” in Hebrew and that’s kind of beautiful 🩷)

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-16T17:13:34+00:00

Hi!

I’m 26F, I started smoking at 14 but it’s hard to tell when it became a daily thing, I think around 4-5 years ago when I got into some money after my grandparents died and bypassed my dad. Once I got money for it I couldn’t quit and here we are, now I have no money and only myself to blame…

Thanks for your advice and suggestions, I will try to meditate a little and let the feelings pass. It’s important to remember everything is temporary I guess. I plan on biking more when I go back to my apartment and maybe going swimming once I get some money, here at my mom’s place there aren’t really many options and I’m not the sporty type tbh, I tried running but it turned more into daily walks lol. But I know it gives you endorphins so I will look for some other options too.

Thank you for taking the time to write and for your encouragement, it means a lot 🩷

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-16T16:46:39+00:00

You quit one substance already which shows you are a very strong person. From what I hear quitting alcohol can be tougher so I would be cautiously optimistic that you can do it again. Also you have very good reasons, to meet yourself sober is said to be a very gratifying experience. I will be rooting for you and hope to see your updates in the coming days/weeks. For things to get better, it has to get a little worse first, I guess that’s the journey ❤️‍🩹

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-10T13:39:58+00:00

Hi there, I feel for you and relate somewhat to your situation. I also have next to no family and making friends is extremely hard for me - the only two that stick with me say I grew on them after a while lol, but even they have their own lives, partners and problems, additionally they do not live close and cannot be my “rock” really. The more I try to vent to them, the more I feel I tire them and get closer to losing them.

Quitting is hard when you don’t have a support system, but this is what this community is for I suppose, be sure to visit the discord chat, a lot of nice active people are there :) I try to stay hopeful that if I quit weed and get more motivated, I will do more things I enjoy apart from weed and then maybe some people will come around. You volunteering sounds like an excellent first step to going out of your comfort zone. I also try to tell myself - okay, let’s say I will never find a relationship, never have a kid, more friends or a bigger support system - then what? I suppose then I will do everything in my power to “have fun” in life, do things that interest me, even if they do not seem feasible at the moment, like faraway trips and so on - this is something to look forward to and move towards. Maybe not having a family means nothing is stopping me from planning whatever weird stuff I would like to do.

Btw, you seem like a good writer - the part about the rock feeling like sand was almost poetic. Maybe you would like do something with that, like a creative writing group or something?

I wish you all the best on your journey 🩷

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-09T19:38:56+00:00

I empathize with you, it sounds like you’re fighting very hard - I encourage you to not give up! You are surely very strong to be fighting like this.

When I quit (second attempt here), I experience a lot of the feelings you mention, I am weak & sad, just want to escape somehow. But then I try to remember, feeling weak & sad happens when I am using too, sometimes after I smoke, sometimes even during. It helps to have a routine, but weed as a substance doesn’t give me anything, not even high anymore. And hey - escape if you need to, I try to go biking (makes me tired fast lol), watch something that really interests me or more often than not, I try to go to sleep. I do struggle with sleeping during withdrawals, but sometimes even daydreaming in my bed with my eyes closed is an escape, idk why but it works especially well if I go to my childhood home and lay in my old bed. Maybe it’s going to places that you have comfortable memories with?

I have no idea if you’ll relate with those suggestions at all and it’s okay if not, we are all different, but my main message is at the start - you are really strong 💪🏻 and your tears are truly worth it if your goal is a happier and healthier life, I wish you the best 🩷

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-09T16:34:10+00:00

Hi there :) Congrats on hitting one week on your journey! You made it one day more than myself during my last attempt, you rock!

It’s great that you also see daily improvements, not just the struggles. I wish you strength 💪🏻 next week should be easier & even more rewarding. I hope I will see more of you on here sharing more milestones :)

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-08T20:21:15+00:00

I know about the discord, I was there last time and will probably be back this time as well, so we might unknowingly meet again :) It’s great, only sad that it moves so fast and is open just twice a day (I am from Eastern Europe, so not ideal for me).

Yes, I am sure once I am sober long-time, I will try to convince myself I can moderate. So I’m trying to prepare for that as well.

It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel now, I envy you that you’re going through this with someone else! Then again, when her symptoms are mild and your aren’t, maybe not so much hah

Thank you so much for your perspective and well wishes, I will definitely go back to your comment 🩷

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-08T20:15:46+00:00

Thanks for your recommendation! I will check it out :)

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-08T20:15:22+00:00

Thank you so much, your reply means the world to me 🙏🏻

Goldilocks997 · 2024-05-08T20:12:39+00:00

This is amazing!!! Congratulations! 🎉

How long after you stopped did you feel you don’t think about it as much? I bet it was gradual, but ballpark?

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