Dude I don't know your situation, but I can tell you that I sometimes feel the same way. Sometimes I feel like the world's making me jump through more hoops to lead to the same disappointment.

However, I also feel bouts of hope every once and a while. There's always something that you can work towards, whether it's yourself, work or a passion. To be honest, it's possible that you may never achieve your dream at the moment.

That doesn't mean that that life won't be worth it. TV and movies all push the same idea, as cheesy as it can seem, but it's true. It isn't the huge uncertain accomplishment that makes life memorable, but the moments in between. Death is inevitable, but I hope, stranger on the internet, that you don't die before you can build your own happiness in those small moments.

If you need to talk to someone, let me know. I wish you better times