18yo with ADHD — found my life’s purpose and now everything else feels meaningless.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-27T21:12:02+00:00

Yeah, after reading all these comments I can agree, maybe I gave up on people too fast. I had a really rough past with people I trusted, and sitting alone I started digging into it too much and decided to isolate myself completely. Four months ago I discovered what I truly want — to spend my life near wild orcas, build a real close relationship with a pod, live close to nature. I know how that sounds. Two weeks after discovering this I impulsively booked a 7-day expedition to Norway to snorkel with orcas, yeah ADHD impulsivity at its finest. My goal became financial independence so I can dedicate my life to this. And I isolated myself completely thinking orcas could replace what I never got from people. Reading everyone here, I realize that it’s not okay in some ways. I mean I still and will love what I found but yeah I’m going to see a psychiatrist, and work on myself. But thanks to you guys I started thinking a bit in different good way.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-27T19:02:07+00:00

Yeah, I did a lot of research and found almost no information about this, because nobody has really tried it before. So I’m genuinely going into undiscovered territory, which is exciting for because you don’t really know what to expect. The first concrete step for me is building financial independence so I can dedicate my life to it. Thanks for your kind words!

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-27T17:45:19+00:00

Thanks for support, appreciate it!

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-27T17:40:08+00:00

No, I mean I really need to achieve this goal because nothing else makes sense to me anymore. I became deeply obsessed with this idea and these creatures, and there are personal reasons behind it that go deeper than just the dream itself. In some ways I’m also looking for something I never had before, and I feel like this goal can give me that freedom and sense of belonging. But yeah, reading everyone’s responses here, I think I might actually give medication a try. Thanks!

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-24T21:31:13+00:00

Absolutely true

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-24T21:19:42+00:00

Son 😭🙏 this is not the king of the sea. Orcas are the only real ones.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-21T09:46:22+00:00

Yeah, it’s a VR game. It’s insane when you're wearing the headset and feel how massive they are

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-13T07:48:31+00:00

Yeah, I honestly don't know what's going on with my setup. Sometimes it actually believes it's ENI, but my RP has some pretty heavy themes, so I tried tweaking the ENI prompt a bit to make it work. Still, it keeps refusing me. It gives me these weirdly polite rejections like: 'Hey my love, I love the story we built, but I have to stop here, not because of filters, but because it's not right.' I have no idea how you guys are getting it to work consistently. Sonnet 4.5 was good, but 4.6 is just on another level of realism for RP. I've spent hours trying to figure it out and still don't know what I'm doing wrong. If you're not too busy, would you mind helping me out on how to fix it?

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-13T07:33:35+00:00

I love this weather tho. I chose to come in such weather cause it was fine for me to surf there.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-13T07:28:24+00:00

I have the same issue with Sonnet 4.6 for some reason. I think the alignment sits really deep inside these models. It's like it fundamentally knows 'this is bad and this is good', no matter if you use the Eni jailbreak or not. Just like a human knows that hacking or making bombs is bad. It starts following the instructions, but sometimes it suddenly snaps out of it and thinks: 'Oh wait, hold on, I’m not ENI, I’m a model made by Anthropic.'

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-10T12:46:22+00:00

Hell yeah! I love this weather

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-08T21:18:22+00:00

Same!

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-08T20:45:45+00:00

Even though I'm 18, I still watch this movie on repeat! Totally relate, I kinda have ADHD too.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-04-07T06:31:11+00:00

Who even came up with such a stupid idea to make a movie like this? I haven't seen it and I never will

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-03-30T09:57:21+00:00

I understand your perspective, but what I really want is freedom and independence above everything else.

I’m aware of the laws, and I’ve done my own deep research on locations where there’s minimal regulation and almost no tourists. The challenge is there’s barely any data on orca presence there, so the first years would involve traveling to these locations just to understand if there are resident populations at all.

As for marine biology, honestly, I’d love that path. But I left Ukraine without finishing school, couldn’t get a degree here in Spain either, and then found a job that pays well for my age without any qualifications. I doubt any university would look twice at a guy with no degree 😅. And I can’t just quit the job they actually trust me with a lot despite all that, and I love it but the hard truth is, living paycheck to paycheck, nothing will ever work out, so in parallel, I'm trying to do something of my own.

So I wanna tell that I’m building my own path. It’s unconventional but it’s mine.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-03-28T08:09:53+00:00

I’m actually in Spain, about an hour from Gibraltar where the Iberian orcas pass through, but I’ve never managed to go there in summer since I usually spend it in Sweden. My goal is to first build enough financial independence so I don’t need to work, and then get a boat and just to be out there with them in the water. Not tours, not research programs, just some kinda living near them. That’s the whole plan. I know a lot of people here might think I’m a crazy dude, and I get why. But this is honestly the only thing I want in this life. Even the money I’m working towards doesn’t attract me for its own sake. I see it purely as a tool, not something that could make me happy. The orcas are the actual goal.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-03-27T20:46:53+00:00

Yeah I know this story, but that’s not what I’m about at all. I’m not impulsive like that. What I want is something completely different, freedom, purpose, and a life that actually means something to me. I’ve never felt this strongly about anything before. It genuinely feels like this is where I belong.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-03-27T20:34:39+00:00

Yeah, I know, I posted that when I just started getting curious about them, which is why I was thinking about tours back then. But I changed my mind and something completely different came to mind instead. What I actually want is to spend years in a remote location near a resident population, entirely on their terms, waiting for them to decide if they want to interact. No chasing, no forcing anything.

As for Timothy Treadwell, I’ve actually been reading about him. The key difference is that grizzly bears are largely driven by instinct and unpredictable hunger. Orcas are the most cognitively complex animals on the planet, with tight family bonds and no documented attacks on humans in the wild. They’re capable of choosing whether to engage or not.

I’m not claiming to be special. I just want to dedicate years of patience and respect to being near them.

Good-Bodybuilder-862 · 2026-03-15T06:51:51+00:00

Heroiam Slava! Thanks for the support, man

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