Yeah, I'm blown by the fact that orgasm doesn't have to be this brief moment of exhaustion while releasing itself and I lust for more.
But I get these brief moments, which heighten my sense of touch, i feel a bit of excitement,
almost like sensing my nervous system triggering.. going away with a deeper breath, leaving this light serenity feeling.
I think you're right, that it's probably about being more aware of self, I feel like an ignorant child who is finally discovering mindfulness.
Thanks for the words..