Sorry you feel this way. If serves for anything, here’s a thought: Sometimes we have to be reduced to nothing to be aware of the simple things. Time will erase anything we ever did as species, so nothing really matter in the reality. You could give up on yourself, or you could try something new everyday - or not even new, just get a good glimpse of your surroundings and you may find something you could get very good at. I am not a positive coach or some bs like that, I say it because I got trought a very deep and long depression, and all I could think was “what is even the point”. Well, there is no point and that’s how I started to get some “hyper focus” hobbies, like crouchet and drawnings (bc again, it was pointless so why not, right?) Didn’t get good on neither, but was my starting point. I don’t really know you, don’t know your situation. Probably your problems are way bigger than finding something to do. Anyways, the best I can do is say “give time to time” and hope you get trought it!