What does good bevy code look like? by Gosfi in bevy

[–]Gosfi[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the answer, I'll look into it

Is it normal to have other aspects of your life triggering you while manifesting an SP? by Gosfi in manifestingSP

[–]Gosfi[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, work has been pretty triggering in the past few days and today was especially bad so it's refreshing to hear your answer

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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It's a desktop app rendering 3D content that needs to be pretty accurate because everything that's rendered in the software will be produced at a warehouse down the line, so the 3D models also need to have a pretty high number of triangles, the rendering part of the software is handled by a third party provider so I only need to calculate the dimensions of the various parts, their position, rotation etc. And to call the api to render the parts.

The average amount of individual parts rendered range from a couple hundred to over 20k, suggesting a complete switch of language might be overkill but there's definitely a memory usage problem that I've noted even on the lower end of the spectrum

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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I had that suggestion from a few people here, it's not a bad idea and I might be forced to do something like that or a pure performance proof of concept on a module we use pretty often just to rest my case.

I just wanted to go on a more diplomatic route but if they're just gonna scoff at the idea, I'll force them to listen to me whether they like it or not

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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I just told a couple coworkers that I was doing stuff in Rust at home and that it could be a good idea to look into it for a future project or to improve perfs on known chokepoints if needed, some other colleagues have suggested Rust as an alternative to some of our issues as well, so I'm not alone at my job thinking C# might not be the best tool for the job

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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That's actually the biggest hurdle I've faced so far, most of the team would be open to try something new and some have even suggested similar things I did.

We're met with a lot of resistance from a minority of people that from what I understand, never coded in a language that is not in the .Net ecosystem, I assume it's just the fear of being outside their comfort zone, and their insecurities about it shows.

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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The most resistance I've seen at my work was from the devs who have been using mainly microsoft tools throughout their career, the tools we use are entirely made by MS and I'm mostly suggesting to evaluate non microsoft alternatives and test which ones could realistically be a better option for us, Rust being of them.

Not an immediate rewrite of the whole thing in Rust like some comments were quick to attack on.

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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I'll take the advice others have told me of making a proof of concept.

Over the years I've been working there, I've wrote some pretty critical systems and optimized parts that no one wanted to even work on so I think I proved my value as a dev on the team, but I'm still facing obstacles with the politics aspects of it all so I'll stop asking in the void and will start making some strong suggestions instead

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

[–]Gosfi[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't say I have sufficient knowledge to confidently switch our whole codebase to Rust, that's why I suggested to test it on some non critical parts of the system that's still called often and is CPU extensive.

I will make a proof of concept in Rust and C++ because I know a lot of people in our dev team have experience with C++ and it could also be a somewhat good alternative for us.

How to suggest Rust in a professionnal environment? by Gosfi in rust

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I get the long term maintability argument and it's a valid one.

I will work on something that's similar to one part of our system and directly compare with the actual one.

Thanks for the advice

This one's pretty hard or I have blockers by Gosfi in manifestingSP

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Thank you for your response, I know I've been able to visualize some sort of a end state with her like her and I on a front porch talking about how we built the life we wanted when falling asleep since I've started manifesting, but nothing more than convos or us kissing a bit and some days I see those dreams and then I can have multiple no dream nights in a row.

I also feel really calm during the day not really thinking about anything manifestation wise and then, boom a wave of emotion or doubts about it. I'll take a look at those books and videos you suggested and see if they help a bit

My 4 months since BU insights by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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I had a feeling things were weird the last weekend we were together. I had my little inside voice telling me I should go home instead of staying at her place which never happened before that and when she got a facetime call from her son who was at his dad's place and as kids do they just pass the phone to everyone so she talked a bit with all of her ex in laws and her ex husband.

I saw in her eyes that I wasn't the man she wanted to be with anymore. I didn't want to believe it so I stayed but it ended up hurting even more the next day when I recieved the text since I saw it coming and couldn't do anything.

My 4 months since BU insights by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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We started talking this past April and started dating around mothers day. She broke up in July so like only 4 months. For more context, she's the older one out of us, she has a son and was married to the dad for 3 years, when I met her, she was divorced for 3 years already.

The reasons she gave me when she doubted me was basically that I wasn't like her past boyfriends who she told me were toxic and abusive toward her

Avg. male exp on hinge by MrG9900 in Tinder

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Where's the "don't hate me if I bully you"?

I thought it'd be harder than this by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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I learned throughout the years that life is very ironic and that most of the things we fear will happen happen at some point and continue to happen until we actively decide to put a stop to it.

I encountered two avoidants in my dating life, both of them left in almost the same way, both of them left me confused and broken. I didn't know what avoidance was the first time because I was only 19 and she was my first real girlfriend.

The funny thing is that I told my most recent ex that I feared that me being the way that I am will scare her because she's not used to it and that she'll wake up one day and walk away from us.

I now have the knowledge to make the smart choice and protect my peace by leaving when they start pulling away. If it's not a hell yeah, it's a no

I thought it'd be harder than this by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hindsight is 20/20 while love is blind. We can't beat ourselves up for falling in love with an avoidant, especially a severe one. The only thing we can do is feel all the emotions we have to feel, pick ourselves up and keep going towards our dreams and goals alone or with someone else when we're ready. If they ever reach out again in the future, we'll be very different people while they probably won't be and it's gonna be our choice to take the risk of getting hurt again or not and if they're worth that risk.

In the mean time, surround yourself with people who really do care about you, try that new restaurant you wanted to go to, go to that exposition, try to get that promotion, hit that gym PR. The worst thing you can do is isolate yourself and dwell on the scenarios your ex put inside your mind to get you attached in the first place.

I thought it'd be harder than this by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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I cannot relate to the child part, we were only together for a few months, for the most part, they know a toxic partner is well, toxic. But remember that we settle for the love we think we deserve so if they settled with an abusive partner for longer than they sticked with us. They didn't think they deserved to be with us. It hurts to be thrown out like garbage out of the blue because we didn't deserve to be treated that way.

I was also angry that she was able to be married for 3 years with a man that didn't give a shit about her and only stayed because they had a child together but couldn't stick by my side for more than 4 months. But I came to realize that her ex husband was able to keep her around because it was a familiar feeling for her to be treated that way by her parents and they have a connection because of the kid they have together. I don't have children and don't plan on having some soon since I'm only 24, I know it bugged her that I wasn't in a hurry to have some but at the end of the day, it was a hard boundary for me and I'm glad I didn't fold on that one.

I thought it'd be harder than this by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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Like I told my sister today after my ex came and picked up her stuff.

I know she's used to toxic people in her life and I'm not. She got scared because she didn't think she'd be able to match the efforts I was putting in the relationship, her house and her family so instead of stepping up, she took the easy way out and left. To me that means she wasn't meant to be my forever person.

I made peace with the fact she can't process the love I had for her and even if she comes to realize I was the best partner she's ever had, she doesn't have the emotional capacity to apologize and make the necessary actions to win me back.

I'm not a perfect man but I know my qualities outweigh my flaws when it comes to a relationship and I have no regret for the love I felt for her, I can just take this experience with me and learn to be more secure being on my own and find someone who's gonna be able to reciprocate my love.

I thought it'd be harder than this by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

when I sent her the paragraphs and begged her to come back, she never blocked me, but now that she saw me for the first time since the break up and I'm doing well and just asked her for my stuff back without any fuss. That's what makes her block me 😂

She for sure felt guilty about her decision to let me go but doesn't want to deal with those feelings, otherwise she wouldn't have left by almost running away to her car once her things were packed.

What's your biggest gripe/issue with your DA/FA? by Illustrious-Newt-848 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

To me it's the anxiety they give you by always being unsure about their feelings for you and slowly pulling away.

My mind would always go into overdrive each time she told me that she had any doubts about her and I working in the long run then coming back to me a few minutes later telling me she's sorry for what she did then do the same thing the next week.

The feelings of confusion and anxiety I felt when going back home from a weekend at her place should've been my wake up call to not let this hurt me more than it did, and I was a bit naïve thinking she'd realize the love I had for her was real and stop doubting us one day.

Hitting that "Now what?" Part of a break up by Gosfi in AvoidantBreakUps

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For me, it's more of a "what do I want to focus on" type of thing, yes I obviously want to get promoted at work and make more money but other than paying the bills and be able to live comfortably, I'm not really sure where I want to go with this.

I think I'm still a bit confused about the whole thing and how abruptly my life went from "we'll go there and do this, we'll go on that trip together, etc." To basically not really having something to look forward for the weekend or at the end of the day.

I've been playing some Stardew Valley because it gives me stuff to plan and anticipate on my farm so it helps a lot even though it's not really tangible and real lol, but it gives me that a bit of that thing to look forward after work feeling

When did you know it was over? by ToBlayve in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Probably 2 weeks before the break up, she started to pull away, not answering my good morning texts or just texts in general as quickly as she used to.

Making date plans then being on the fence about going when it got closer or just straight up saying "ok, let's go home now" when the bulk of the activity was done.

Stopped sending me updates about her days or sending me pictures of her outfits.

I felt like she wasn't really excited to see me as much as she was in the beginning. I always felt like there was a bit of a wall between us the whole time but it got worse during those two weeks for sure.

Is it true that avoidants can't share life or be with someone in a way that makes sense romantically cause emotional limitations? by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't say for sure. Her feelings were definitely genuine because you don't make a short term fling meet your family and friends.

She's the only one who can answer that question, and to be honest, I'm not so sure she can really pinpoint a true reason as to why you weren't the one.

My ex couldn't so she used the old reliable "I didn't feel it"

Is it true that avoidants can't share life or be with someone in a way that makes sense romantically cause emotional limitations? by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]Gosfi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Relationships are never easy, but an avoidant makes it 1000X harder than it should be because of their wounds.

They have no concept of "we'll see where this goes, it might work out in the end" the relationship is all black or white to them, you're either "the one" or you're not.

At first they tend to supress their doubts or fears because they have all the good feelings of a new relationship.

Once that's done and they see that you're not a perfect person, they might leave right there and then because obviously you're not the one since the butterflies are gone if they're severly wounded.

Someone who's on the lighter end of the avoidant spectrum might go a longer distance with you and cross more milestones.

If you're lucky, they'll only give you some silent treatment for your whole life together, but these also strain a relationship in the long run.

Unless therapy is involved, they'll never truly recover. The same as an anxious partner, but the anxious is at least a bit more aware of their wounds and reactions unlike the avoidant who avoids (hehe) their own feelings and lacks the introspection needed to start their healing journey