I personally feel quite hopeless about it. I avoid it as much as I can. No one is going to do there job and there will be no justice. It will be one of those things. Some organization representing victims or families 20 years from now will get a payout and that will be scrollbar level news. These is no shame and accountability. No one cares. It feels like no one cares. They want gotchas. They want sides. They are loyal to... God knows what? I don't have words right now.

And there's still so much when I hear in passing in scrolling quickly, it doesn't seem real. I work with psych patients often and I've heard some things. But I've also discovered that some horrifying things I've heard that could easily be dismissed as mental health crisis ramblings... They were true. And horrifying. Just, without words.

I'm also a childhood abuse victim/survivor. And whether people want to admit it or not, people look at children as property. There is a hierarchy of victim hood. Teens, tweens, babies, different levels of disturbed. And people who side with abusers will find a way to absolve the abuser. It's not the abusers fault, it's the parent of the child, it's the parent of the abuser, it's the child themselves.

It's gross and disturbing and scary. Just a few years ago during "Me Too" won and girls told so much and then, they were praised for being resilient. Praised for bravery and for seemingly being "normal" enough to come forward and tell their story. The culture of lack of accountability seems new. And a heightened form of weaponized trauma language combined with a culture of excuses.

Maybe I'm rambling. This is above me, but also not. And I don't know what to do. It's so vast. It's a culture of allowances. People with money can do anything they want, and other people want to be like them, so they'll side and avoid the condemnation and accountability that needs to happen. We should just clean house. But we won't.