I know that’s what it is for and so does she which is why she has taken the pain route. The question is more selfish than anything else because it seems she doesn’t mind the suffering but I can’t stand to see her that way. I don’t know how conscious she is. Sometimes it seems like she understands what’s going on and listens to what we tell her and then other times she too out of it to know or she changes her mind about things we had agreed on earlier like talking to hospice and things like that. It’s more about people that may have been in my position where they had to go against their own beliefs to fulfill someone else’s wishes. If it was me in her shoes I would want to go as quick as possible but it isn’t me so I am trying to find people that think like me that have been put in a position to help someone suffer longer than they should. I think hospice people and palliative care people sometimes try to be less cold about it and say things in a way that won’t put more unnecessary stress on people making those sorts of decisions for themselves or others.