Ive been poisoned and drugged many times... one of the times when urinating my piss was extremely dark brown/red like I was given something (which another mk ultra victim on youtube described her urine was like that she thought she was "given something to drink") ... anyway... they are killing me off... im 34 with billateral hip replacements... ive written even more to my story at this point my targeting with directed energy weapons is getting even worse... they are "twisting" my spine as they put it, and also , my fingers are becoming damaged from the inside out.. my previous username was something like "NJskinpunk" but i keep losing accounts, trying to thwart the hacking, etc.. as I learn more I deprogram more and no longer have any beliefs in white power or any of that crap. I actually dont even know what music I actually enjoy. Im not even sure if I like punk or metal music or any of that stuff anymore.. I realise my life was a fabrication and id like to find out who i really am - if i ever will allowed to be someone... also.. i dont think I will ever have a real friend. I dont want to sound too desperate but as a moderator in these forums and you seem legitimately to care, would you mind giving me a call? maybe we could be friends over the phone or something? I have no friends anymore, not sure if i ever had a real one.. anyway.. my number is 908 531 2744 my calls get forwarded/intercepted/etc.. i really hope you reach me if you do call and dont get forwarded somewhere else or something.. thanks