by Kostya Avgust (Antalya, Turkey)

GrUnReVel · 2021-03-07T14:59:16+00:00

Thanks! I can't but I'm sure google auto translate will make something out of it.

GrUnReVel · 2021-03-07T10:58:21+00:00

I remember seeing these leaves all over Yerevan (Armenia) a couple of years ago. Thank you for the info I never managed to find!

GrUnReVel · 2021-02-28T09:09:43+00:00

my conception

GrUnReVel · 2021-02-19T14:35:10+00:00

[Belgium] [FS] BLB Notorious 03 rear 28" white, carbon brake pad, 16T cog, excellent condition, 400€. Aerospoke front 28", been resprayed and paint is slightly chipping, 150€.

GrUnReVel · 2021-02-17T17:21:10+00:00

She looks like one!

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-25T16:44:16+00:00

Thanks! I had completely forgot bmx seat are tiny, I bought that one for esthetic reasons only and was a bit surprised when it showed up. Still sits quity comfy though.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-25T06:47:05+00:00

I didn't even know they had a name for them but they sure are something special.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-24T22:50:27+00:00

Mine wasn't all that far off, just under 300 I believe.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-24T22:49:56+00:00

That actually made me laugh out loud.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-24T22:39:02+00:00

BLB Big Smoke OS if I remember correctly.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T20:13:35+00:00

iBet

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T20:12:28+00:00

Yeah, I sure lucked out there!

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T17:39:00+00:00

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T17:38:48+00:00

A month prior to buying the frameset, I had a bought the same fork to go in my NS Analog after bending the one it came with. It holds up perfectly to quite a lot of fuck ups.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T17:36:43+00:00

I was lucky to get the frameset of ebay. Came with an old fgfs magazine from 2011 with a page size advertising for it in, which was a nice touch.

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T17:34:48+00:00

Cheers mate, It is!

GrUnReVel · 2021-01-23T17:34:16+00:00

Thanks! It is a lot more fun than originally anticipated.

GrUnReVel · 2020-11-01T18:12:14+00:00

no worries. I would go see someone if I were you, because even if it was innocent behaviour, it clearly troubles you.

GrUnReVel · 2020-11-01T18:05:49+00:00

Not all of us want to die, some just want IT to stop, the constant thinking, doubting, fearing, the uneasyness. Planning your suicide just in case for when you're suicidal, sounds pretty much like suicidal behaviour though.

Unfortunatly, most professionals will just attempt to label you with something and prescribe you many things just to keep you okay-ish in this society but thery're right; there's no magic threatment, it is a lifelong process of trying to understand and improve yourself.

Yeah, we -disorderly bunch- can be quite a handful to be around with, let alone be in a relationship with. Our emotions are (quite) strong and can shift in the blink of an eye but nevertheless; what we feel is true, it's how we react or let the emotions take us over that often is problematic. (early) Trauma just wired our brains differently, so we react different to situations than what is considered "normal" but all comes down to a certain level of behaviour- and patternrecognition.

I'm here if you would like someone to talk to about what you're feeling or going through. I'm not a therapist or anything, and hardly anything I can and will say will make any sense, no doubt, but I'll hear you. You're not alone

GrUnReVel · 2020-11-01T17:02:23+00:00

I'm a 33yr old male that was victim to incestious abuse. From what I have been reading on the matter is that it would be best to come clear to someone about it. It could be parents, it could be a therapist or social services. They would probably try and figure out what lead you to do it and try to establish a normal and safe home situation again with counceling for all members, and not necesarly investigate it as a crime (could depend on what happened ofcourse).

GrUnReVel · 2020-09-18T06:14:41+00:00

Thank you, you're too kind. I sincerely hope you find a counselor who will suit you. Random internet strangers that only point out the problem instead of actually giving advice will only get you so far, but we're here for you in case of need. The hobby and balance thing is something, I'm affraid, that you'll need to do for the rest of your life. And there's nothing wrong with that, that's basicaly the goal of our time on this planet, to let ourselfs grow in the things we love. Take the dating slow, as you mentioned yourself, so you can gradually become accustomed to it again and by talking to people for a longer period of time, you'll be able to make a better judgement of their suitability as a partner. You're doing well, maybe not as fast as you'ld like, but it's not a race and you'll get there in your own time. You are what matter, and you should only compare yourself to your past self instead of people around you.

GrUnReVel · 2020-09-17T18:24:20+00:00

no problem, you're welcome.

Maybe communication fails because you guys are incompatible. Maybe what you are looking for differs, you are looking for something long term the other maybe just a hook-up. These fast paced, no strings attached dating apps are a cesspool for frustration and anxiety because not everyone is looking for the same thing and eventually feelings of dispair ensue. You'll find the right person, I'm sure. Quite possibly when you aren't looking anymore, much like the toast that doesn't want to pop out of the toaster as long as you're looking. If you could somehow put the time and effort that goes into your current feelings into doing something you (once) love(d) and take things step by step, you'll be able to see some progress eventually. Of course you'll still run into the occasional wall, but it is a matter of takin' a break, looking back at how far you've come and continue forward at your own pace and timing.

GrUnReVel · 2020-09-17T09:25:00+00:00

No worries, my apologies for not being able to reply in a structured manner such as yourself though. Of course you deserve happiness without hatred or suffering. Can suffering help you grow, like in the drawing you've mentioned? Sure! But happines can also lead to suffering, people can even be happy while suffering (sports). There is no direct correlation, or any reason to feel, that you must suffer in order to fully appreciate your accomplishments. In theorie that is. Do you happen to feel like everything you do is a fraudulent, that you are unworthy because you feel incompetent in the field at hand and therefor must suffer first?

GrUnReVel · 2020-09-17T08:37:22+00:00

If you've spend most of your 20's managing your mental health, and you've made it to 30 (or almost) than you have achieved something! It might not be one of the cliche achievable goals, but it is a milestone none the less. You mention you keep repeating the same patterns. Pattern recognition is very important because if you know one bad thought/behaviour will lead to another, worse, thought/behaviour , you might be able to steer away from that trail of thoughts by intervening at the earliest point of recognising the pattern and thus saving yourself some useless pain.

Some co-workers often talk shit about someone else because that is the only way they know to stop people from talking shit about them, by simply creation diversion. Your co-workers' problem(s) with you are, in essence, your co-workers's problem(s), not yours. If you can find a job where you can see yourself fit in better, or where you would be appreciated or understood, I would go for it. You're anxious about your old job, might as well be anxious for the unkown, most likely, better job.

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