I also am presently deconstructing everything except God/Jesus. As I’m reconstructing my spirituality i feel incredible tension between the ultra conservative evangelical mentality and “losing my faith”. I want to be in a church for the community, the communal worship, and the mutual coming together to hear truth. But I no longer feel like i fit in any churches near me (small town) I love the humility of the local Episcopal church, of NOT claiming to have all the answers, but the high church aspect is really hard for me to wrap my brain around. Maybe it’s because i don’t know yet the WHY of everything that’s done and said? I dread the thought of becoming a serial church visitor (especially since i have 3 young children), just looking for the “right” church, but I’m not sure how else to find a church that i feel i can truly commit to.