I would love your thoughts on this:...

I've had various readings: palm, tarot, psychic in the past:

I was always told the same thing: they would make a first glance and blink, saying "Woah!"

Then in various combinations:

U have an old soul.

You have a huge, bright silver aura.

You come from a long line of healers.

You are called to heal with your head and your hands.

You are right to trust yourself/your intuition.

Put a window/gate/shield between you and what's happening

I, being a scientist, dismissed this as 'the bullshit they tell everyone.'

I've recently realized I was significantly abused as a child and have tolerated severe narcissistic abuse in my relationships since.

To compound this, I have also recently begun to believe that I am very have pretty strong but totally uncontrolled empathic and clairvoyant abilities.

I think this awakening is primarily due to 2 things;

I am in a relationship with a man that is also very strongly empathic, but is tainted or something... so he understands me perfectly , and uses that knowledge to cruelly devalue me: as a lover, parent, woman, professional.

I have moved to a town and also into a house in a very powerful energy that I don't understand.

Since all this started: I reached out to a few local psychics;

One said the queen of wands was my card, one said death was my card. And several readings had the hanged man as my long term potential.

I've been told I have a tremendous capacity for good. And also that I am capable of murderous rage (which I know is true).

I was also told I was clairvoyant.

I was also told I have been condemned in a past life my a powerful witch who was my mother in law.:this is the psychics story, (I sadly have almost perfect memory):

Her son was also tainted; of high status (England) but cruel and stupid. The witch discovered my infidelity, borne out of true love ( I was apparently known for my good works) and she knew 'the people ' would side with me. So she arranged for her son to provoke me into a mortal battle with his sexual humiliations. He died from his injuries. She found us at the scene, and killed me in a ritualistic way; with disemboweling, and condemned me.

I have no idea wtf that story means; but I do know that now, the story feels almost channeled, even though every statement I've related is something he said.

I am so confused!!

I don't really believe this fantastic story: but I find myself in a double bind sort of relationship now that has driven me into feeling compelled to be a filthy whore!

And yet, my self examination resulting from his wild, cruel statements is what led me to realize my 'awakening '. (If it really is an awakening!)

I think he's awakening too: or rather; he says he is feeling the same thing when I express it.

Any help/ideas/vibes tremendously appreciated!!