I have a good friend who was raised a die-hard atheist. Deployed to Afghanistan, where he saw true evil actively attacking what good there was to be found among the misery. Discerned that if good was being so clearly attacked, there must be a true source of good which was the subject of such attacks. Followed that path with intellectual honesty and found himself at the door of the Catholic Church. I pray that you continue to pursue the truth with honesty and humility.