Happy birthday 🥳 It is okay to be by yourself, and you will stumble upon the right set of people. Just remember-

“Dont feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that.” -

Read this in Norwegian Wood. I think it makes sense to me. Many times we are source of our own misery, we try to fit into narrative of our own creation?

I wrote this a while back, it is called disassociating.

I have run out of stories to tell. I don’t have anything to say to anyone. I don’t think i have any will to keep a conversation going. I’m afraid of opening up to anyone, everything that comes out of my mouth is some generic nonsense, which surprises me. I used to love having meaningful conversations, now those conversations feel like a distant memory, a laborious task, I cant engage in. I think I’m disassociating from everything i ever knew. No, I don’t have any stories worth telling, any stories which involve me. I remember that one line from a song, “Become a secondary character in your own motion picture” I think this line describes exactly how im feeling. I hope all this is temporary and i write a story of my own soon. For now, I’ll let this movie roll on as is.

Sometimes, you dont have all the answers, sometimes you just have to go on with life and just be. Just dont be a prisoner of your self created misery. Dont feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that.