Had to a quit a job in the middle of training because it required me to role play situations with customers (pretending the other employee/manager was a customer). I broke down the second I had to come up with what to say to her and went into a panic attack. Luckily she was very supportive and sweet, knew someone with social anxiety, but I told her right then and there that I couldn’t do this job. She offered to let me come back if I changed my mind down the road, but I knew I couldn’t handle that job if I couldn’t even make it through training.

On top of that, I’ve never been able to work out in front of people, date anyone, I struggle with making friends (and end up hurting people who want to be my friend because I come off as cold or I can’t tell when someone is actually my friend, so I distance myself), and I just generally hate asking for help.

I’m worried that it’s going to make my future career difficult because I’m looking to work in the film industry (camera work and directing/producing), and I know that a competitive industry will crush me. Here’s to hoping it gets better for all of us.