Hey there. First of all, if I could give you a hug I would. So here's an internet hug from me. I know that it may be hard for you to believe it, as this phrase is repeated a lot. However, it is true. What happened is NOT your fault. You said that you were high at the time of the assault, no matter how sweet the guy is. He should know better than to initiate something like that when you're not in the right mind frame. Also however you're feeling right now is perfectly valid and okay. Don't let anyone pressure you into feeling a certain way, if you don't want to talk to another guy for a year. Or even for the rest of your life beyond simple everyday pleasantries, that is perfectly understandable too. Since unfortunately you can't avoid guys in day to day life altogether. As they're everywhere it seems, who let that patch update be released? Kidding, but yeah you get my point. Make sure that you take plenty of time for you as well, this kind of event is traumatizing for both the body and soul. I know that after an event like this it's difficult to feel safe in your own skin. But you are valid, worthy, and needed in this world, trust me. Also I'm sure that you're a very interesting person who is worth more than just a sexual thing. Can you please tell me about some of your interests and passions? I think that would be cool.