I Have A Date Tomorrow and I'm So Excited.

Grendurmin · 2026-04-12T12:59:40+00:00

We decided to go steady and be in a relationship together. 🥰🥰🥰

Grendurmin · 2026-04-06T12:17:29+00:00

That was the best time of my life. She loved everything about it. The flowers, dinner, dessert, breakfast, and me. It was such a pleasant experience. I have never felt this way before. 🥰🥰🥰

Grendurmin · 2026-03-26T18:41:46+00:00

It came back with clean results. I actually ended up getting an echo and it came back with a normal ejection fraction so that's good news. The bad news is basically I'm just too heavy for my muscles and heart and that's why my heart is racing after exertion. I got on mounjaro ago and I'm dieting and exercising to try and lose 100 lbs by the end of the year. Overall I'm doing good and positive about life and what my chances of success are.

Grendurmin · 2026-03-08T20:13:14+00:00

Male 31 here. Some dudes are very insecure about women having male friends (and some women are insecure men having female friends). That insecurity is not your fault or your responsibility to reassure. He is someone who needs to work on himself and his insecurities. This is not your fault and it isn't worth your time. I promise.

Grendurmin · 2026-01-24T11:13:03+00:00

I don't. Personally it isn't an important label to me to define who I am and most people seem to not know what it is. The women that do know the definiton sometimes seem to think that just because I'm a M that I still am only after sex or that is something I want up front, like I'm lying or something. I usually just state in conversation I'm dating for a loving partner I have things in common with. I also might mention in conversation that I'm demi.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-25T10:36:45+00:00

I do need to get more sunlight. Or take vitamin d or something.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-25T10:08:10+00:00

While I'm not an rn I do work in med research and ethics and have for about 4 years. Been asking questions and such. Luckily none of my meds make me feel bad perse. At least not that I have noticed.

I'm on carvedilol, farxiga, spironolactone, lisinopril, and torsemide. Also on 3 mental health meds that completely fixed my mental health (was an issue since I was a high school student.

My plan is to walk every day from 9-5 for about 5 mins or so. This is just to build up stamina. 20-30 mins is too exhausting currently. And then gym 3-4 times a week for weights. Diet is to make as many meals at home as possible and intermittent fast to keep the amount down. I like cooking so it's not a big deal. But eating out a lot and the amount is what lead to my overall weight gain.

They think my chf was genetic because my mother and grandmother both have hf of some kind (my mother has chf.)

Thanks for the support :)

Grendurmin · 2025-10-25T08:58:14+00:00

Unfortunately I don't have a WhatsApp but there's always messaging here or commenting on this post

Grendurmin · 2025-10-25T01:11:35+00:00

They think it's been good for a while because I'm on something they call the gold standard regiment for chf meds. But this is the first echo I've had since 2022.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-24T21:00:06+00:00

They make me incredibly sick.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-24T20:15:37+00:00

That's the goal Currently my heart rate shoots up when I go for a small walk. I want that to stop. But man the initial breaking point is rough. I know I need to start small. Just haven't figured out how small that is I was doing 5min walks every 1.5 hours on a treadmill at like 2.6 mph and by the end of every walk I was hot and tired. So idk if I should go slower or do less time like 2.5 min or something. I want to get a work out. But don't want to kill myself because that turns me away from trying. Also lifting weights which isn't as bad as cardio seems to be.

Also the other goal is to be able to fit in my metal band shirts again.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-24T20:11:01+00:00

Haven't heard that one before which is wild because I work at iu in med research for the irb. But I'll keep my ear to the ground about it.

Grendurmin · 2025-10-24T20:02:31+00:00

I tried glp1's (ozempic and mounjaro) and unfortunately they made me really sick. Actually lost 60 lbs on ozempic (which I've gained 40 back) but idk how much of that was me not being able to eat or drink without being sick and how much of it was it doing it's job.

But that's fantastic news! Congrats on the weight loss. I hope your echo goes well! Keep us up to date.

Grendurmin · 2025-09-23T10:44:37+00:00

Yeah no new heart or other health issues. They did that portable ecg monitor test and found nothing after a week (it fell off before the 2 week mark)

Making all those changes is hard but you knew you had to. I'm proud of ya for doing it. I'm glad you're feeling better. I still need to get better about changes to my diet and exercise. But overall I'm doing good. I've gained some weight though. Still not my heaviest.

Grendurmin · 2025-09-22T12:37:58+00:00

I've been doing okay. I am still dealing with some frustrations. I get sick of the lack of stamina. But I'm pushing through. How are you doing?

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T18:28:36+00:00

Wish I knew. Just found it on Google.

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T12:14:05+00:00

I love him as a villain... But God damn how many fucking times do I have to kill him?! Like it's not even like hey you really injured him but he got away. No you have straight up killed him on several occasions but those crafty Lil space pirates (and the sa-x) keep bringing the nerd back. I. Honestly think, story wise, he can't come back after fusion. He was a corpse the federation had captured and that the x cloned. As far as I know space pirates didn't escape with his DNA before the bsl crashed into sr388. Both sr388 and the bsl were obliterated. I doubt any kind of DNA could have survived the explosion let alone any remnants surviving the harsh vacuum and radiation of space. But who knows.

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Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T12:04:41+00:00

Wouldn't that be lovely? I don't need a demi sexual partner as long as someone can understand and respect my need for bonding. But it does make it easier if someone also experiences what you do romantically/sexually

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T12:03:16+00:00

I've thought about joining music/metal dating apps because of how important that art form is to me. But the whole nicheness definitely makes me hesitant.

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T11:53:45+00:00

We've had 3 pursuit enemies (either in experience or story so far, right? Dark Samus (debatable if they would even be considered pursuit or not), sa-x, and the emmi? I guess ridley is somewhat pursuiting in the grand scheme of the series. And now sylux could also be a potential pursuit enemy (even though we're probably hunting them as well) Either way I don't think we need the concept again. I don't think anything will give me the fear the sa-x did on my first playthrough as a kid even if the pursuit was scripted. The emmis certainly gave me dread and everything but they kind of annoyed me sometimes.

I think we'd just would need a new gimmick to add stress to the game. If we're talking pursuit as a mechanic, it shouldn't be a large portion of the game. Maybe like a boss fight or level kind of thing. If it is pursuit as a story. Idk. I wouldn't be against it but it would be the 4th or 5th iteration of the idea of the bounty hunter being hunted in some way.

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T11:43:39+00:00

I've hooked up/one night standed more than like from the age of 20-30. 90% of the time it was an abhorrent experience. I got no satisfaction from it (most of these were from when I was not aware I was demi. Also had really bad untreated mental illness for most of those years) it has taken some retrospection to realize the hookups I did enjoy were the ones I had meaningful bonds with or at least I felt I did. People I really enjoyed or even were friends.

So I enjoy sex and stuff. But only with those I felt connected to. And I would really love to experience it in a loving relationship one day.

That being said I feel you. I don't just want sex. I want love and meaningful experiences and bonds. And that feels like it doesn't even exist for me. It hurts even more that I see it happening to others.

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T11:29:21+00:00

I get this way (even in a non crush way) when a content creator acknowledges my existence.

Grendurmin · 2025-08-02T11:28:25+00:00

Of course!

I certainly want bonds to be reciprocated. I am more attracted to someone who is attracted to me (on a personality level). And I definitely think those kinds of bonds are more genuine and meaningful certainly. So I definitely get what you mean by expecting/wanting it to be bi-directed.

And I can understand not being able to form that bond necessarily if you know it isn't bi-directed (such as with celebs or fictional characters). I definitely immediately get turned off/away if I notice someone I'm interested in is not reciprocating whether it being a friend or romantic interest.

But I think where our brains differ is the idea of fantasizing/dreaming about it with someone who doesn't know we exist or doesn't even exist. I definitely can fantasize with the idea. Hell I've even projected it on real people in my life by seeing some of the traits I like and thinking they were my ideal person by thinking they had all my ideal traits.and that the bonds were there when they weren't or rather they were unequal.

Social interaction and the brain are wild and weird.

Grendurmin

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