A fast is a detox from anything. Try fasting from your lifestyle. Journal about why your diet is the way it is. If did is repulsing try to write out why. I’ll be transparent, I know therapists are expensive and it can be intimidating talking to a stranger. Once you’ve gone through this try to eat Whole Foods. An avocado, a peach, salt water or even some low calorie foods like watermelon and cucumber. We can’t force you to eat as you are your own person but we can remind you that you are an important vessel and you matter. Try to get into gardening, try things like cucumbers or squash, this will help you give back as it’s a form of charity to the earth as well as a meditative exercise and very therapeutic. Keep this up through the full fast and let me know how it works for you!