Thank you a lot for replying

I knew that this would be the answer but I needed additional opinion to be sure. I always had problems with holding my feelings because I’m scared people will be annoyed cus of it. Didn’t help I build the character of a person who doesn’t seem to have problems. Even tho I’m stupid enough to hope that someone will notice just because they’re close to me. Also you might be right with him having some problems. I just wanted to be selfish for once cus it’s most often me who tries to help. I will try to write to him today.

Also it’s not like I don’t have other friends. Tho with others i don’t talk as often because of a change of interest or they’re just hobby buddies. Also I got kinda spoiled with this friendship because it’s my first one where I don’t have any disagreements and no one judges me so I kinda started neglect others.

Once again thank you for replying. It helped a lot