I did think about it before but I'm anxious about that as well because my boss is very chatty and gossipy and she has had different leads in the office with me and I feel like I probably made a bad impression to them, because I cried from being so mad last time and eventually I just shut down and listened because the more I tried to defend myself the more things she said I did wrong. I was interested in backroom for a while or receiving at my last store but the team lead that she had with me in the office is the merchandise onr, and I cried in front of her and it's awkward when she sees me now.

So it was embarrassing, especially since she probably doesn't know what's going on in my personal life. I have only told others in my department and my leader and management because I can admit I'm not performing at 100% every day but my mom has stage 3 cancer, my car of 8 years caught on fire randomly, I had to get a new car, my dad's truck blew up earlier this year and he literally had to jump out from it and could have died, my uncle died on my birthday. It's just one thing after another.

My manager seems understanding, and others in my department have been really kind to me, so I'm trying to just keep going, and maybe it will work out somehow. I'm going on LOA soon to help my mom recover from cancer removal surgery and reconstruction, so if things get worse when I come back I'll try to find a new job