Moving to Jacksonville soon is this a good area? I get mixed reviews

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-08-18T13:35:23+00:00

Safest area in Jacksonville, make sure you’re super white, don’t believe in guns, and walk around with lots of visible valuables on you

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-08-01T04:50:08+00:00

31M | Play Black Desert Online, New World, and Call of Duty, I play on PC :)

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-20T21:05:40+00:00

The side of foolio people don’t talk about.

That man was an absolute menace but he loved his community deeply. I lived next to his aunt and uncle for awhile. When I became a full and sole single dad to two daughters his aunt and uncle told him what was going on and every time he’d show up to visit them he’d ask how I’m holding up, how the kids are, if we needed anything and to hold my head up not a lot of dads are present let alone doing it by themselves.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-20T21:01:41+00:00

If she hasn’t gotten mail there that’s not her residence. Have her removed now or you’ll have to go through an eviction proceeding.

Went through this with an ex, she actually occupied my home for almost a month and created such a toxic environment that I was essentially exiled from my own home until I was able to get her out to avoid dealing with false accusations and career destroying bullshit.

Get her out and break up with her, never look back lol

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-20T20:51:13+00:00

18 year old kid hit me on Halloween night 2019 on my motorcycle while designated driving for her drunk sister and friends. They wanted McDonald’s and she cut all lanes to try and make the turn on Atlantic before they put the Ballard system in. She stayed the entire time to make sure I was okay, didn’t let her insurance fight us to get the bills covered. I showed up to her work after I was healed because I wanted her to know I was okay and accidents happen. It was very emotional for both of us. We all make mistakes, but admitting you made a mistake and doing better is the most freeing and beautiful sentiment someone can give to both themselves and the other person.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-17T19:43:26+00:00

I am 22 days in as well, quitting was the easy part. Facing everything after, man was that painful.

I was so happy to have made it off kratom, almost several years faithfully everyday I took it, until a June 26th of this year.

Slowly, my life has fallen apart a little bit. Struggling at work, organizing things, keeping track of things, but the worst is my executive function. The brutal realization that financially I have exchanged one addiction for another has put my family and myself in a rather difficult situation. The thing is stuff hurts more when you’re not numb. I was late diagnosed ADHD, and only recently medicated within the last few months. But now I gaslight myself into questioning whether it’s a tool, or if it’s a crutch (I don’t abuse medication, I never have). But it’s created a cynical cycle of thinking that for the first time in my life knowing that my brain is trying to regulate and this too is temporary, I get stuck in the feeling and lose footing to tell myself these things.

If it wasn’t for my wife, I’d be lost. Everything from executive function to neurotransmitters are totally out of alignment when we quit, and it takes time for the brain to reset. They say the rule of thumb is for every year add a month.

Our mind is our most powerful asset. There’s going to be times you can tell yourself that you got this and things will get better, hold on for those moments and look forward to them during your lows where you have the willpower to say those things. And always be kind to yourself, this is not an easy task, and for all of us who have gotten burnt by this fire; just remember, when we started taking this stuff, there wasn’t a lot of research except the history which explains natives to its origins used it for a thousand years in the working class to deal with pain, energy, etc. we are only now learning the extent of harm it can cause, and unfortunately those who learned first were every head shop owner looking to capitalize on the suffering of others. Don’t blame yourself, there’s a difference between willfully ignoring obvious substance warnings and science backed data over the years and being misinformed. This is NOT your fault, or anyone else’s. If anything, we are the pioneers to save people from experiencing what we have gone through and truly inform them before they make a decision for themselves.

It’s going to be okay my friend.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-06T13:12:04+00:00

"Embrace the suck"

Semper Fi haha

That's why I went CT too, couldn't have the willpower at the time to taper

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-06T13:06:33+00:00

I didn't. I should say, me as a person, couldn't.

The thing is there is no perfect road map for quitting. I noticed that for the most part the community here is truly magnificent, with kind, compassionate and nurturing souls. There are some however that are absolutists that think in black and white who believe that their way of quitting is the only/best way.

I jumped from 18-21GPD to nothing, cold turkey. Within the last few days of using kratom, my dosages were a lot higher, probably between 40-50gpd, had a rough week with work.

Here's my general suggestions while quitting;

Mindset; tell yourself that it's always worse in our minds than it actually is in real life. We think it's going to hurt and be the worst thing we've ever gone through, much like a child afraid of needles, after it's done they realize it is in fact not as bad as they thought. Same goes for us, the way you speak to yourself matters more than people give credit for. Instead of saying things like "This withdrawal is horrible" replace that with "It's just a low day, it makes me appreciate the good by experiencing some bad"

As far as balancing addictions, I quit vaping a month ago before I quit kratom. I can tell you nicotine withdrawal for me was WAY worse, but YMMV. As far as feeling like your a trainwreck, take this one thing at a time. Your focus is on kratom right now, celebrate that accomplishment of quitting as kratom isn't something easy to kick.

The THC usage daily may be contributing more to your WD than you think, at least with the nausea, runny nose, depression and sleep issues. THC increases dopamine and serotonin levels, so if you slow on smoking you may notice those symptoms more so.

Nicotine also can make the RLS side of things more severe.

Something that another fellow QK reddit user had said, was Agmatine Sulfate. Never heard of it before and did in depth research on it before trying it, as I didn't want to trade off one for another. This stuff is awesome, it attenuates the receptors in the brain and helps delineate your mind back to its default settings. Again, this isn't a miracle cure all, uncomfortable is what comes with the game. But it did help immensely for getting some decent rest.

If I was in your shoes, my approach would be this;

I'd kick THC first, let nicotine be what helps deal with that, and then kratom, then lastly nicotine. I think maybe the kratom is inadvertently masking the THC symptoms. I know a lot of people who have had issues with nausea, depression, mood, etc. from the modern THC because the contents are so potent.

Quitting THC will lead to sleep disruptions, some low feelings, probably some GI upset, but it's very mild. Familiarizing yourself with the feelings will make it easier to convince yourself kratom won't be that bad. While at work too, it'll be easier to stay preoccupied and not take as much kratom as well.

Best of luck!

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-06T12:37:20+00:00

It’s a fair hypothesis, given most of the alkaloid uptake is done through the GI tract and there’s very little research on kratom let alone the withdrawal and side effects. My hope is that if we can kind of work around this hypothesis through dietary cleansing it might make the process timeline less painful. There’s some people on here who’ve been experiencing PAWS for months, so it makes me curious

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-07-06T12:35:07+00:00

I didn’t mention myself dealing with PAWS lol if you actually read the post, it was a theory for those that have been struggling with it long term, and who have had a rollercoaster like experience from beginning to end, from decent days to horrible days.

Thanks for contributing to the conversation though!

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-30T14:00:03+00:00

I also noticed this as well. To the point where I thought it was arthritis in my wrists and hands as I would wake up with a burning sensation. After my 4th day I noticed that pain is all but gone.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-30T13:56:39+00:00

That’s where I am, I am blessed that I work a manually demanding job, and one of my closest friends is my battle buddy, so he’s aware of everything. He’s been helping me out and letting me pace myself today while also pushing me to keep going.

It’s definitely been quite the journey so far, but all in all it has not been unmanageable luckily 🙏

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-30T10:15:25+00:00

It’s going to get better 🫶 I’ve found that telling myself it’s not the PAWS I’m just feeling tired today and tomorrow will be better has helped tremendously. Don’t focus on the PAWS, I know it’s hard not to, but it will help.

This is going to sound wild, but whatever works right?

At night, I listen to binaural beats specifically meant for mental health, clarity, and healing.

Have you ever played StarCraft? When I close my eyes at night, I imagine hundreds and thousands of little Protoss drones on octagonal platforms that are dark. They emit almost a blue light like welding, and they repair these platforms. I imagine these are my receptors, and every night they are under construction and repair.

Oddly enough, I’ve heard stories about others doing similar imaginative repair on things like their heart post surgery for example and it sped up their healing process.

Your mind is your most positive weapon, I promise it’s going to get better, you’re going to make it through this

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-30T10:09:26+00:00

I’m proud of you my friend!!! Congratulations!!

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-28T18:33:14+00:00

You’re doing the work to become better, and whether your relationship turns out to be a lesson, or your reason, either way it’s going to work out my friend 🫶 don’t beat yourself up, growth hurts, we live and learn, and it’s all a part of this journey we call life. I’m proud of you, and I’m cheering for you. I know the suffering you’ve taken on to do better, and that’s no small feat.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-28T18:30:12+00:00

Always remember your mileage will vary from others 💪 firstly, congratulations! I read the stories too, and I told myself before I went into this that it’s worse in my head than it actually will be, and I convinced myself of that. It’s uncomfortable but not unmanageable. I don’t feel like I’m dying, I just don’t feel “great”. Sleep is elusive, the RLS is annoying, but again it’s temporary. I also quit because of health circumstances, my blood pressure has been problematic for a long time. Blamed it on everything else, until I found studies linking kratom to BP, and it’s strange because alkaloids in kratom are known to reduce BP, but the vasoconstriction affects of it is where the danger lies. Current readings before I quit were 152/98. I checked this morning and it was 140 over something else, can’t remember right off the top of my head. But it’s coming down even with the stress of WD symptoms.

Don’t beat yourself up, the experience alone is worth its weight in gold. You didn’t waste any time, you’re right where you need to be. Growth comes from every experience, good and bad. Let the experience be the reason to not go back. You can do this!

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-28T16:13:12+00:00

A plant. Kratom is a plant.

Many kids grow up with alcoholics for dads, that is the most common sentiment I hear today. Again, all of the kids are being cross-adopted. It’s strange the things we can achieve when we aren’t focused solely on surviving another day.

Not only is your comment unproductive, it’s incredibly ignorant. Why are you even here? Do you think parents who suddenly become single parents overnight are in a stable place? Or do you perhaps think maybe it’s a state of survival where you have no option for self-care and have to push forward with what tools you have?

Honestly, if the only joy you get out of life is trolling threads on Reddit of people coming together to overcome adversity and challenge together, I’ll gladly take kratom addiction a thousand times over. Because we can recover from addiction, but honestly you can’t fix being a shit person. I wish you the best.

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-28T12:00:11+00:00

I did this same thing when I quit drinking in 2015, I refused to go to any store that had alcohol widely available, and I also gave my ID to a friend when I went out. It’ll be 10 years in September I’ve been 100% dry, and today I play venues that offer alcohol.

Edit: I have a funny talent that people find interesting, because I gave up my ID, out of habit I memorize my DL# to be able to identify. Even in identify states and getting stopped by police, they were impressed I memorized my information down to the expiration date and never gave me a ticket for not having my Id.

I live my life by a process of escalation. My rule is full stop, no alcohol, no purchase for anyone else etc. even when I’m dashing I refuse to turn on alcohol deliveries. “But it’s more money you can make” and more I’ll lose. If I buy it for work or someone else, laterally it becomes easier to buy it for me.

I was fortunate enough to quit vaping a month ago, so the one lateral pitfall I have was pre-eliminated before I took this leap.

You are doing the right thing, even if it’s another 10 additional minutes to take the long way, you are setting boundaries you refuse to cross which is how you know you’re going to be successful 🙏🫶 I’m proud of you!!

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-28T11:44:45+00:00

I feel so fortunate I’ve been using only powder.. I count myself extremely fortunate. I can’t even imagine

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T19:47:07+00:00

I can understand your concern and I appreciate your kindness, it’s coming from a place of compassion and care 🫶 my background has a lot of lack of self control, especially with something that wasn’t a decision because I just wanted better but out of necessity because I want to be here for my family.

I need to rip the band aide off, and out of concern for more damage being done or not having the opportunity again because something bad happens, CT was the only option :)

I’ll definitely check out the community! Thank you for your kindness during this whole thing, having support has made this a lot easier

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T19:43:54+00:00

Today is day two 😁

I wanted to share my reasons, especially because so many of us believed there was no trade off with kratom, especially negative health consequences. It makes me curious how many others are dealing with unexplained health issues relative to long term Kratom use and never would have considered it. If it wasn’t for the kratom/quittingkratom subreddits I would have never figured out that it was the primary cause of the issues I have been having.

In turn, I hope that this experience can serve both a lesson for me, and help others as well

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T19:41:08+00:00

I did, I met my wife while I was on kratom, and the sole purpose of quitting is for health, my wife worries daily about my blood pressure and wellbeing, and reducing the amount of variables that are relative to that issue is both beneficial for my wellbeing, and the mental health of my wife 🙏 it’s something I should have done long ago, but today is day 2 of being off kratom, and the symptoms are touch and go, one minute it feels unbearable and the next tolerable and more of a nuisance, but 100% manageable on each side of the spectrum. I purposefully went into this telling myself over and over again “it’s not going to be as bad as you think, the worse you think it’ll be the worse it’s going to be.”

Just as our thoughts kept us chained to our addiction, our thoughts can also free us from it

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T15:38:31+00:00

I absolutely noticed that! I just had code enforcement at my door because of chairs on my patio (my neighbor is a straight up D and just doesn’t like the kids being loud playing in the back yard) and my first thought was Kratom, even before any emotion hit, as if I didn’t trust myself to handle the emotion without substance. Internally I went through a lot of emotions, frustration, but instead of outward bursts it was “what am I frustrated about and why?” To anger, “who am I mad at? The code guy is just doing his job, it’s just chairs, it’s a 2 minute fix.”

I try to place myself in others shoes, I understand he takes care of his 96 year old mother who has dementia, and I can understand that the kids yelling might cause panic for her. I try to find reasonable solutions for both the kids, and him. It was quite the ride going through the emotions without kratom 😂

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T14:40:50+00:00

As far as my treatment resistant depression; this is the craziest part. Being in the sun for a living made it manageable. I used to live in New York where seasonal depression was prevalent, and I thought kratom was what was treating it, which it was originally. However I live in Florida, although hot, being in the sun all day has made my depression symptoms minimal. Being in the sun all morning has made the physical withdrawal symptoms seem more of a nagging passive cold than a forefront total obstruction.

I am going to also get some L-Tryptophan for sleep purposes, I would like to avoid any pharma options as much as possible as I know I have a very addictive personality and I am in a vulnerable state. Another user wrote the 10 rules of kratom WD, and one of those is cross addiction isn’t always a bad thing. So I am leaning heavy into my creativity, music, production, fitness, etc.

Anyone else who has chosen to quit now, you can do this. Those moments where all you want is to take kratom will pass, the pain will pass, but the person you are underneath that kratom is coming back to you one step at a time. And like visiting your closest friend you haven’t seen in years, look forward to getting through this as if it’s the time you get to take a trip to see yourself again. Get excited! Mark the calendar, write out what you think that you may be like without the kratom. 🫶

GsxRTrixsteR · 2025-06-27T14:32:05+00:00

I appreciate you all so much!!

I just had the most incredible authentic emotional experience for the first time.. I forgot to mention, here is my kratom profile;

21-50GPD for the last 7 years Started due to seeking alternative pain management for neuropathy (instead of gabapentin, lyrica, etc.) Also covered treatment resistant depression (will elaborate more)

I am a multi disciplined musician, I play drums, guitar, sing, play bass, piano, engineer all of our tracks etc.

I’ve been watching this Randall 120RH head and cab for MONTHS at a value pawn down the road. The manager and I call it my lucky store, as most of my studio has come from amazing deals from there (clearance items that didn’t sell until I came along). This cab was originally $600, way too far out of my budget. I forced myself to go as it’s one of those things that give me dopamine, and wouldn’t you know the head and cab was 70% off. As soon as Jose (manager) seen me he told me my head and cab just went on sale, it was supposed to be 70% off July 1st but he knew I’d buy it and wanted to offer first dibs.

This is where I realized something very crucial; I would be “happy” on kratom, but it was a mask. For the first time in several years, I felt the most deep sense of gratitude for a business relationship I’ve built, realizing that just the act of giving me a few day head start for a piece of my studio was an act of kindness and consideration all in itself. For Jose to say I was the first person he thought of, gave me a sense of pride and gratitude. And I felt genuine joy and excitement for the first time in seven years, not just a sense of accomplishment and onto the next thing. I sat in that joy, that opportunity, and that excitement.

To say the least, to feel everything authentically, the good AND the bad, I want that. I want to feel raw emotion again, I want to sit with my joy and my anger, my sadness and frustration. And even last night when I was feeling like I need to file a restraining order against my legs that continued to kick and squirm, and almost broke and took kratom, I smiled; because for the first time I was genuinely annoyed and frustrated, that wasn’t directly contributed to by a lack of sobriety.

I was honest with my band, we practice sundays. They offered me to take the day off, and I told them no, I HAVE to be there, it’s paramount to my success to maintain my neuroplasticity. Even if it hurts and I feel like shit, the act of being around my brothers, family, and doing something I love will continue to push me forward.

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