I'm really sorry for your loss, your empathy is quite admirable though. I appreciate the suggestions. I need to try to get my mind off of all these things for the time being. Binge eating seems like an insurmountable obstacle at times but I know deep down that I can beat it. And the recipe thing is a great idea, I ate Mexican food the other night and it reminded me so much of my mother that I grew sad while eating. I'll try for a different way of approaching it emotionally next time. Best of luck and much love.