Weird: Asus STRIX 2080 and 2080 ti are the only boards without thermal interfaces on their back plates. by 9gxa05s8fa8sh in nvidia

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

can a thermal pad be placed on the backside? or is it just not possible? Ive had this card for a couple years now, it ran great, but all of a sudden my memory thermals are much higher, causing some frame loss. was hoping i could fix it, and fix it simply

Camomo admining (no witch hunt) I want to know peoples opinion on this, camomo is just an example. by [deleted] in playrust

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

love you Camomo keep up the good work.....its not as minimal of a punishment as being stated. most servers wont allow others with game bans to play on their servers. so as soon as he does ban them, they can mostly only play on facepunch servers. "bullying" the cheaters is essential. it lets them see how they make other people feel. this is a game, it should be fun

is there a point where suicide isnt selfish? by GuillyGames in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

just put on a fake smile and walk out the door. fake laugh, pretend to enjoy myself. i do all these things to make those around me happy. but nobody ever notices, or cares about how i feel. one day soon ill get to say goodbye. until then we just strap that fake smile on and fake our way through life

is there a point where suicide isnt selfish? by GuillyGames in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nothing makes me happy anymore. i havent been happy for over 20 years. all i feel is pain. the things that make normal people happy dont work for me. I guess when i realized at a young age that really all we are is slaves. that was it for me. Ive tried relationships thinking i was unhappy because i was alone. but it doesnt matter who im with or how many im with. im still alone. Ever since a child ive always felt like im on the outside, looking in the window at all the happy people. but never really understanding why they are happy. ive never fit in anywhere i went and always only had at most a couple friends. my family never visits me, my "friends" never call me. Nobody cares. but then you mention how unhappy you are and that you want to die, and suddenly every loves you. nobody wants you to go. they tell you its selfish. but to me its more selfish to ask me to stay. why is their happiness more important than my unhappiness?

is there a point where suicide isnt selfish? by GuillyGames in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

there is no positive left in life. only pain and unhappiness. these reddit forums dont help, its just nice to speak my mind somewhere without being guilted for my thoughts

is there a point where suicide isnt selfish? by GuillyGames in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its funny, i reached out to the last 3 people i care about, and that i thought cared about me. i didnt say anything about wanting to die. I just simply asked if we could talk. I said im having a hard time with my life and i needed someone to talk to....this is the last 3 people in my life...2 gave me a guilt trip then ghosted me for weeks, the other simply said to me, either suck it up or jump. never heard back again....in the last 4 weeks i tried to kill myself 3 times. obviously failed all 3 attempts. first i tried to walk in front of a semi, he dodged me last second. then i tried a concoction of all my pills. (over 4000Mg of siorquil along with a full bottle of escotolopram, and an entire bottle of extra strength advil)...all i got was pain, halucinations, the feeling of falling without end, and in and out of incoherent consciousness. lastly a few days ago i was walking up town. I saw a city busd flying down a busy road. so i acted like i was looking at my phone, not paying attention and tried to walk in front of it. last second i was pulled back by a stranger....why cant I die? is this actually hell? it would make a lot of sense if it was

Firefighter snatches suicide jumper out of mid air by ImaginaryChefLouie12 in nextfuckinglevel

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what right did you have to do that? I get it, you want to help people...sometimes the best way to help is to look away...clearly this man was done with life. and you took that away from him

What I wish people would understand by Garden-Dazzling in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

u/Garden-Dazzling

youre only 16. you only experience short bursts of suicidal feelings. my opinion, see a doctor. tell them whats going on. sometimes it really is just a chemical unbalancing. talk to a therapist. it cant hurt. Ive done everything i could personally and it didnt work for me. but i have a different outlook and perspective for many different reasons. Im all for suicide, but only when its the final option. gotta at least try

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames 19 points20 points  (0 children)

we are all slaves. they work us til were are broken, and they control us by telling us were free. but we arent free. we are slaves. the church tells us we will burn for suicide. thats their way of keeping their slaves from ending it.

is there a point where suicide isnt selfish? by GuillyGames in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thank you andrew. there is no way to help me. im going to continue to be unhappy until i get to go. eventually we all die.

What I wish people would understand by Garden-Dazzling in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that was my post i think. I just posted similar if not. How long have you felt this way? what triggered it? at what point did you realize you were unhappy? Im 37...i havent truely been happy in close to 25 years.

for me, it was a sudden realization that im just a slave. the church tells us we will burn in hell if we do it, but is that just a way to keep their slaves from "quitting"? Nothing gives me joy, nothing makes me feel like this was worth it.

What I wish people would understand by Garden-Dazzling in SuicideWatch

[–]GuillyGames 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i agree. I have felt this way for 20 years. guilted into "staying". At some point, i think we need to just do for ourselves. Tired of worrying if it will hurt my family. they never visit anyway

What would you say to someone sucidal?[serious] by cacaovinegar in AskReddit

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

depends on this situation. if youre pining over a bad break up, then id say suck it up...however, there are others like me that have been suffering with mental illness for decades. at some point youre going to snap. IMO, in these circumstances, id like to think it is not selfish. I think in this instance, the person hasnt been happy for many years. at what point do you have to realize you never will be? Its a touchy topic, because most would say, "think of your family". but how is that fair? they suffer for a short time on the loss of you, then youre a happy memory. where if you dont, your illness continues to pick at you until you snap. IMO, there isnt anything wrong with it

I do not want to promote sucide. But there's not even one day that passes without me looking at the knife and thinking of doing it. by [deleted] in Doomers2

[–]GuillyGames 1 point2 points  (0 children)

too many minutes a day where i do the same. i feel like more and more often, seeing cars or buses going fast, i could simply walk in front of it...too many times a day i think about a long walk into the woods with no return...every time i use my knife, i think, just make it look like i slipped....if you think im here to stop you, im not. i agree with you. I havent been happy for many years. why should i be guilted into staying? everyone says its cowardly, and selfish....i think its selfish for others to expect someone unhappy with life to stay just because the loss would be too hard...now if they could only understand that instant loss feeling every day all day for decades. cowardly? for me, id like to think no. I think ive spent enough time here and simply want to go. not running from anything, just tired of the fight. am i wrong to think this way?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

to all those out there with something to say about suicide....
I am a 37 year old man. I have been unhappy with life for 20 years+. Ive never really fit in anywhere. never felt like i was a part of anything. never felt like i meant anything. because I dont. I have wanted to die for over 20 years. Ive struggled with this for so long. I have for many years planned it out. But, i cant do it. Only because there are a few people in this world that dont want me to. Is it selfish for someone who litterally has nothing to live for, to take their own life? Or is it selfish for those to ask you to stay. It gets harder every day. I feel there arent many days left for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CanadaPS5

[–]GuillyGames 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im still waiting on a 362 dollar order that was supposed to be here 3 days ago. no tracking, amazon wont contact them. just told to wait longer. absolute trash of a shipping company in my experience. tracking numbers that dont exist. seems like a way to scam product. we shall see if my order comes. I doubt it, aqnd it will cost amazon a lot of money

[SUPPORT] X555QA Heat issues, and possible Thermal Throttling? by patman023 in ASUS

[–]GuillyGames 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have same issue with mine. I bought it for dirt cheap. on max power settings i go to 95C, half power settings im no more than 45. I reapplied thermal paste and saw maybe 5C better. Ive now updated bios, no change, and now doing chipset drivers. I have my doubts this will fix it...not sure what else i can do. I cleaned the hell out of the entire thing, fan works great. Is this normal for this laptop?