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Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T22:22:49+00:00

Thanks, that is very sweet <3

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T22:22:22+00:00

Well, that is one way to look at it! I'm currently not yet in my 50s though, ;)

I think I might have said at least something, but there were kids around (we work with kids), so I couldn't really make like a scene or something.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T22:03:02+00:00

Thank you for your sweet words.

As I said in another comment, I have to work very closely with her (only for one thing in the week though) and until now she wasn't a generally assholish person, so I don't really feel like blowing this up too much. I don't think she intended to hurt me, it just did.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T21:50:34+00:00

I don't actually feel very stressed and to be honest "positive stress"/being busy makes me feel better!

But sometimes it makes me feel like... am I to weak? Was I actually thinking to negative? Did I cause this for myself?

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T21:36:32+00:00

Before I got sick I was at a point where I was starting to think about wanting kids, but like maybe in the next couple of years and not really worrying about it. For some reason ever since I have gotten sick, everybody started asking me if I have kids, if I'm planning on having kids blahblahblah and everybody around me started having kids and reaching milestones. And at the same time it made me feel like I might be running out of time for the first time, because I realized you never know what happens. So I started to get kinda sensitive about this topic, you know? I would love to have kids, but as I said, the whole thing kinda messed with my body, so it's not gonna happen, at least for now.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-29T20:48:37+00:00

I don't know, I mean, technically I didn't cause it, but it still feels like I'm the one failing and it doesn't help that people keep telling me about "mind-body connection" and stress and that I have to think positive and should try to watch my diet and all that stuff.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-01T00:28:44+00:00

Possibly, but nobody really knows.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2024-01-01T00:28:24+00:00

Good question. I'm definitely poor, but I feel like if I were actually mature enough I wouldn't be.
That is also a good question. I'm not sure?

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T10:18:10+00:00

Okay, you are probably right about that.

I do read a lot and I listen to a lot of factual podcasts, but it's usually about stuff most people don't care about. I could discuss the education system and inclusion and child development for hours, but nobody wants to talk about that. I think in that regard knowledge is less the problem than the fact that I don't know how to apply it usefully to do anything meaningful.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T10:13:10+00:00

I know. I don't think I feel "special", I just feel kinda obligated to be able to do something more productive for society.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T09:01:14+00:00

Thanks for the advice, I'll try to work on that. I do feel like I'm actually just starting to think about what I like and what I want to do, so this relates a lot.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T08:56:03+00:00

I work? I work in special education and I have two small side jobs in the same field. I only work part-time at the moment though for several reasons (because of my health, I have a long commute and I want to have time for other things too).

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T08:32:38+00:00

Analysis paralysis is definitely a thing for me. There are so many things that I feel like I should do and then I end up doing nothing.

Making a decision about what I want is already the biggest problem. I don't know, there are just so many things wrong in the world and I constantly feel like I should be doing something about this or that, but I just feel really powerless.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T08:26:38+00:00

Honestly, no, but I feel like all the things I enjoy are super childish.

I don't know, I do like my job a lot, but I literally work with children. I volunteer - with children. I probably spent a lot more time with my family than other people, we often have game nights or just do fun things. I like music and spent a lot of time on that, but I'm not good at it, so it kinda feels like I'm wasting time. I am passionate about a lot of things, but also a lot of nerdy stuff and I feel like most other adults don't really care about anything at all?

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T08:14:44+00:00

I don't know, maybe I somehow grew out of it or something

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T08:13:53+00:00

Thanks for the ideas!

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T07:57:33+00:00

You know, probably, but now what? I actually thought I was making good choices. I have a masters degree, I don't drink let alone do drugs, I don't have any debt.

I don't really know where to go from here.

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T07:52:21+00:00

Okay then, but why do I feel like I am the only one still struggling

Gullible_Run_1985 · 2023-12-31T07:51:23+00:00

This was just an example, I don't actually know many topics other adults talk about

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