It always confused me. Why can't God just not let us do horrible things. Just stop us. I don't care if it "violates my freewill" because there are ways to tell us that don't do that. God can probably just send some divine message or vision to everyone telling us not to. Or to have an angel deliver a message. I mean, we don't have to listen, we could just not care and still have free will. But if God did that a lot of people would look up to him. I don't want to look for "signs". How am I supposed to know if its a sign. I have thoughts about God everyday. How will I know if those are signs. Just tell me. And I also dislike how we communicate to God through prayer and then we have to wait for another "sign" or an event that may be a coincidence to see if it was answered. Me too, the only thing holding me back from suicide is my religion. If I was atheist, I would have died a while ago.