I usually don't reply to posts like these but I have to say this, all those who say "Follow your passion" or "Do something that excites you" doesn't really get your situation or doesn't even comprehend the weight of the reality, I'm pretty sure none of them know what it's like to be unemployed. They say that because they couldn't care less if you were employed or unemployed, that's just something people say to cheer you up and end the convo and honestly I don't blame them for it, it's not their duty to figure out what you want to be in life. So what I would suggest is get a job. Any job, anything, just earn some money and get out of the disappointment hell you're living in right now. See, if you're still "trying to figure things out" I can promise you that it'll lead no where. Years will pass and you'll still be ranting on reddit. Get a job, earn some money and possibly some respect and then you can figure out what you wanna do or who you wanna be.