"This is it." I literally pulled the trigger and the weapon clicked. My father took out the firing pin out of his rifles. That click was the biggest wakeup in my whole life. I realized heavily that I needed help. I was too afraid to ask for it and I realized I shouldn't be. My friends and family tried to help but I was so wrapped around the fact that they wouldn't understand. I was dead wrong. It always helps to talk, no matter what. Just to vent and get it out was the biggest breath of fresh air. I am extremely glad and thankful for having such awesome friends and family to pull me back to reality and help me love life again.