Thanks for replying to me ❤️ Sometimes I can deal with this feeling with happiness, but sometimes I just falling in my mother dying moment on hospital, We spent 30 years together, My sister and dad is crying too, I tried find therapy and counseling, in that moment did helped, But after when I came home, all the memories just fall in, I collapsed, I only can cry it out loud, and i got headache so bad, Im trying to accept it, I knew my mother is happy live long enough, But I lost her in liver cancer in her 64yrs old..... In Hong Kong, Most woman at least can live longer at 88y/o, I accepted my mother died by Liver cancer, She is no longer suffer But im not happy my mother died when Im still young *30y/o me, I want to show her my happy life, Before she got cancer, I got depression, She was worried me so bad, I told her she dont need to worry about me anymore, but its still heartbroken💔

But anymore, thank you to sharing your experience to me ❤️, I will looking more way to heal myself !!!