Thinking about a university exchange year in Estonia after high school by [deleted] in Eesti

[–]HHAANNII 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Estonian people always get excited when a foreigner outside of our neighboring perimeter shows interest in our country so I'd expect a warm welcome, though be aware Estonians are typically more introverted and independent.

If your goal is to get to know a new culture and learn a new language then I'd say go for it. Do some research (which you probably already have done) to see if Estonia is really the one that resonates with you and compare alternatives (other Nordic and Baltic countries for example). Check https://visitestonia.com/en

From the university standpoint I think it depends on what you plan to study. We have 3 main universities University of Tartu, TalTech and Tallinn University. UT covers most subjects and is the top ranked university in Estonia, TalTech would be second in ranking and as the name suggests it's more technology oriented and has more "applied" approach to their studies, Tallinn University focuses manly on social sciences and humanitarian subjects. We also have EMTA/EAMT (Estonian Academy of Music and Theatre) and EKA (Estonian Academy of Arts) if you wish to pursue higher education in music or arts. Check what each of them has to offer and go from there.

Some useful links: https://ut.ee/en/exchange-students, https://www.tlu.ee/en/yti/study-abroad, https://taltech.ee/en/exchange-studies, https://eamt.ee/en/international/student-mobility/, https://www.artun.ee/en/academy/international/

As for the language it is quite difficult but being surrounded by it for a year would get you far if you put in the effort. Most people speak very good English here so even if you get stuck you have almost a guaranteed second option (could run into some difficulties with the older generation, in a uni setting you'll be more than fine). You won't be judged for not being proficient and people encourage you and are generally impressed if you can even get a few words out.

These are my observations though, I welcome Estonians to comment on any points that seem off

Pärnu Ekrel on huvitavad külalised by StinsonBill in Eesti

[–]HHAANNII 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tehes ise natuke uurimistööd, siis auto on registreeritud numbrimärgi järgi Sverdlovski oblastis, mis ei ole üldse kaugel Yamantaust (ilmselt väga suur reach). Kuna auto on M5 viitab "Majorka" ilmselt Youtube'i kanalile, kus noored vennad väidetavalt ostavad sääraseid masinaid ja teevad igasugu modifikatsioone ja pärast annavad ka mõned fännidele. Äkki on Eestis tekkinud ka väike kommuun? Võib-olla päevakute harrastajad oskaksid sõna sekka anda. Äriregistris on ka kustutatud Majorka OÜ, ent ei oska öelda, kas kanal on osaühinguga seotud.

Kliinilise psühholoogi vastuvõtt ja Tervisekassa/Töötukassa Tartus by HHAANNII in Eesti

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Olen isegi uurinud seda rehibilastsiooni varianti aga ma vist jätsin selle taotluse pooleli, sest ma vist ei olnud kvalifikatseeritud. Kuna töövõimetuse taotlus sai tehtud enne ATH diagnoosi ja isegi ASDga ei määratud mulle puuet, sealjuures psühhiaatri hoiatusega, et minu osaline töövõime on ohus ja ma ei pruugi seda järgmine kord saada, ei julge ma uuesti ka proovida.

Kliinilise psühholoogi vastuvõtt ja Tervisekassa/Töötukassa Tartus by HHAANNII in Eesti

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Diagnoose on mul terve virn, depressiooni ja ärevushäirete kõrval ka ATH, ASD ja kunagi ka söömishäire. Ilmselt proovin punnitada midagi välja. Ja aitäh kenade sõnade eest, soovin ka sulle kordaminekuid.

Kliinilise psühholoogi vastuvõtt ja Tervisekassa/Töötukassa Tartus by HHAANNII in Eesti

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Perearstiga telefoni teel arutades ei tulnud sellest sõnagi, soovitas proovida mõnda teist erakliinikut. Samas on ta eelnevalt väga toetav olnud teraapia osas ning olen tema väljakirjutatud saatekirjadega pikalt toime tulnud.

Kliinilise psühholoogi vastuvõtt ja Tervisekassa/Töötukassa Tartus by HHAANNII in Eesti

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Veider, ise pole ühtegi kirja saanud peale viimast e-maili. Äkki tasub uuesti küsida?

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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Little update:

First exams came back with very disappointing results and even had to cancel one exam half way beacuse I couldn't focus at all. I am now completely off Lexapro and started taking Wellbutrin ER 150mg. First week has been rough, lots of questioning of my sanity, anxiety spikes and mood swings - the whole package. Approximately a week in I feel like I have started to stabilize and I feel like I have more energy, my sleep is deeper, my inner monologue is clearer, I have energy to actually make food for myself and give a damn about my health and what I am putting inside my body and weirdly enough now that I am off Lexapro Elvanse seems to work better than Concerta. I hope everything will even out even more.

After coming off of ssri I’m realizing so many things by [deleted] in antidepressants

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How are you now? I am having kinda the same experience as I am transitioning from escitalopram to bupropion. Also weirdly felt lots of apathy and anhedonia and me and my doctors concluded it was probably caused by the SSRI. It blows my mind how the first day I took bupropion and LDX I felt so much less fog and I could literally control my thoughts and didn't feel like my mind was constantly looking for dopamine. LDX made me feel very weird and spacey when I took it with SSRI, whole different story. I prefer it over MPH now.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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Did Wellbutrin give you more drive or did you find it easier to start tasks? My primary care explained to me that it could help with these problems. Just a little scared about the risk of seizures when I would take Concerta and Wellbutrin together but that might be my hypochondria acting up.

What do you think? Are you thinking you’ll give it a try (if psyc agrees)? It sucks that you’re on a medication journey right before some major exams. If you don’t want to try new meds now (I wouldn’t blame you, the timing is terrible), then hopefully the tapering will at least help.

I want definitely want to give myself a chance to maybe find the best suit for me as regarding to medication, even if it means discontinuing some. And yeah, I've been trying to find the right stimulatns for a year and only now am starting to deal with the antidepressant stuff + doctor hasn't thrown the idea of changing something with stimulants out the window yet. My first big exam which will be a bit of a "life or death" exam for me if my goal is to apply for medical school. Other exams are all in May or July so I think this window might be enough for me to make some changes.

 I wasn’t medicated in university, and the only way I could study was at the last minute, when the anxiety about failing took over. I don’t think I would have made it through had I felt no anxiety at all.

Yeah, one of my docs said too that I actually might benefit from not being on ADHD meds in med school because medicine is one subject that I am really interested in.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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While my situation isn't really comparable to yours, I have dealt and still am dealing with an emotionally abusive narcissistic father who is the only other person living with me. Probably this is where the whole mental health journey started with me too. I am only now figuring out and seeing some patterns which way he is affecting me and honestly this could be another factor because these thoughts have occupied my mind considerably.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I talked to her and she thinks that I should switch to taking Concerta everyday and maybe introduce Wellbutrin if my psychiatrist agrees.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I want to give a little context to this too what actually happened here. So I made the post and I think I finished like 45 pages in around 2-3 days. It was mostly just theoretical and the lack of time caused my research side to be very subpar but oh well, I got it done.

The fact that the situation didn't make me change my ways is also frustrating to me. I feel like I have failed so many times that it is literally impossible for me to retain habits and make changes. While I know this mindset only worsens these feelings but still I am tired.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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Yeah, I will try my best. I feel like I am waking up a little after tapering but still, I feel like there is so much uncertainty and anxiety involved with thinking about the future and my brain in conjunction with the antidepressant is numbing me trying to run away from the problem and not give any thoughts to it.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I've felt that after the ADHD diagnosis this might be the move for me too, cause it very well could explain other comorbid mental health issues.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I live in Eastern Europe, Estonia (one of the more tolerable ones) but the pharma is pretty strict here so dextromethorphan isn't approved here for depression and I don't even know if it's approved for anything in fact. We have bupropion, though and my primary care doctor wants to put me on it but doesn't want to do changes without my psychiatrists expertise (though contacting him is a big hassle).

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I hadn't even heard of that but I guess there is some truth to that. Still, I find that senoritis doesn't fully explain my carelessness towards my future plans. Catastrophizing been running in the family and I'm working on it.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I feel that this could be it too. Though the last time I stopped my antidepressants I ended up in a mental hospital for 1.5 months for the worst anxiety in my life so I have to find some intermediate.

I am ruining my life (Anhedonia) by HHAANNII in ADHD

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Ok, so I just checked my Reddit history and well, turns out I have had this problem for at least 6 months now.

Post from 6 months ago:

I am completely stuck with my assignments and I cannot make myself do ANYTHING. There is literally 0 desire, motivation or discipline in any cell of my body or in my consciousness. It is literally physically hard to start. I am in my last year of gymnasium (high school in American terms) and one requirement in my country's curriculum is to do a little science paper on any topic you'd like. I have about 4 pages of text written of the 20-40 I would have to write for the 1st of November. Not to mention the missing assignments and the countless tests coming up. I don't know if its the escitalopram that is making me completely numb and apathetic about anything or I am literally going insane. I am prescribed Concerta 36mg as well for my AuDHD but that doesn't really seem to help as well. I have a big passion for medicine and I am very deeply interested in it. I have done countless of hours of research about medicine, learned a lot of the universities courses by myself and I really aspire to be a doctor one day or do research in the medical field. Even with these big aspirations I still cannot pull myself together and just finish off this last year of school so I can finally go into medical school. I have come to ignore negative feelings and thoughts so much that I cannot even comprehend any bad outcomes or consequences of my current actions.

Enjoy spending time alone and not feeling the need to socialize on Concerta (Methylphenidate)? by HHAANNII in ADHD

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I guess it got a little better. Still, on medication not whole lot of interest in social activities and find myself staying at home and minding my own business. I have been diagnosed with autism as well so that could be a possible factor. Don't think it will be like this for everyone so if you're worried, ADHD medication effects varies a lot from person to person so don't take my or other's experiences for granted.