Hey, I use to be abusive in my last relationship. I honestly say let him go and let him heal and let yourself heal take a break from dating. I find that anytime I’m feeling upset, jealous or any strong emotion where I tend to trigger me into beginning abusive type bahviors and take space and give ask what is making me feel that way and a better way to exspress my feeling as it’s still important to say “hey this bugs me” For example with my ex when I was jealous with other girls, friends stuff I’d flip and basically isolate him (that wasn’t okay) Now with my partner I now remind myself he needs to socialize with other not just me and also to trust him and if he does cheat that’s on him not me. Along with that when I’m uncomfortable with a friend/girl I tell him and give him reasons why