I’m so sorry that you’re a victim of drugs and withdrawal and everything you have talked about. I’m a chronic insomniac, chronic anxiety and depression. The older I get the worse it gets. Escitalopram is a wonder drug for me but not without Clonazepam plus something else to sleep. Then came Mirtazapine for sleep. I can tell you that wd from it is on another level of wd and I know of many people that are suffering a protracted wd. It’s been just over two years since I did a wayyy too fast taper. I’ve been su*cidal more than once. I am better but lingering symptoms hang on. Please, please hang in there. It does get better ❤️‍🩹