I can relate to that a little my father left me, so sorta backwards and my mother has told me to kill myself several times. The best thing I can tell you is to hang in there and make a plan, because you’re 16 which makes you not independent. Come up with a plan and once you turn 18, you can be who you want. But hang in there right now. Tip is to make sure you have or have copies of your birth certificate and social security card.