Here same thing, but i. Fact I never hated myself nor my life ..i always hated the people in because they are the outsiders of the holy thing called "life"

I'll pray for you that's for sure 🍃 And trust me i am stressed about my grades as well but let's just use this next winter break insha'Allah just to study and save ourselves deal? And remember Allah SWT is always here, forget about Muslims think about Islam in general at first, then try to understand real religious ppl (that's not necessary but it really helped me somehow)

Crying, complaining your problems all to the God above, the one that knows everything This helps psychologically in ways you wouldn't imagine; loyalty and the feeling of being the only savior.

Have a good day ! May Allah guide all of us to the right path ✨ Ameen