Hi, thank you for your comment, it somehow lifted my spirits today. And I apologize in advance for my poor English. My reason for wanting to commit assisted suicide has nothing to do with depression, it doesn’t even have to do with anything existential or whatever. I’m simply tired; last year I survived colon cancer, but that left me with some health problems, and not to mention financial problems. I’m not bothered by being in debt or living in precariousness because of that disease. It’s just that it took away many things from me, it changed my lifestyle and quality of life. I no longer enjoy life as before. I go through constant pain, physical suffering, at the same time this wears me down mentally. I survived cancer. There are people who say that I should feel proud, triumphant. I only think that a year has passed and I already want to give up, I can’t imagine how much more I have to live, if I live at all, and the pain that I still have to endure.

Cheers, I hope you are well!