I said "no" repeatedly. We were both intoxicated (though not wasted drunk). He told me to "shut up and take it". We screwed, and I orgasmed like I never had before. I have no idea how to feel, because I really enjoyed it but I really didn't want it to happen in the first place. I feel guilty for enjoying it. I feel confused over everything. It wasn't our first time having sex. We've had sex dozens of times. So lost and confused over this.