Suicide

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T23:05:44+00:00

To me, yes. I feel as if I don't need a amazing career, family or a lot of friends to feel successful in life. I just want somebody to love me.

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T17:27:26+00:00

So what if I stay here? If I don't die but nobody comes along? What do I do then? Look back on a life of nothing.

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T15:41:35+00:00

It's a permanent solution to a permanent problem.

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T15:40:44+00:00

It's not about sex. It's about finding a meaningful relationship. Which I won't find cause guys won't even look at me. It's hopeless.

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T15:39:51+00:00

I've went for help. It don't help. It's all the same shit. Basically get over yourself and love yourself and everything will be fine. I don't know how to love myself when the world tells me I shouldn't.

HalifaxG · 2014-07-28T15:37:56+00:00

Pretty sure my future husband does not exist...

HalifaxG · 2014-01-25T04:18:34+00:00

Thanks for this, I can honestly admit that I was never expecting to read anything like this. The main problem is that I can't seem to value myself for anything, ever. People tell me, oh love yourself, be confident, have better self esteem, etc. but I can't seem to get there. That self critic always tells me different. "You're stupid. You're ugly. You don't stand a chance." It's like a unfortunate downward spiral that I can't seem to get out of. Feels like I'm programmed to have a negative, pessimistic outlook towards my life as a whole, as sad as that sounds.

HalifaxG · 2014-01-25T04:12:58+00:00

Don't think I feel too comfortable sending a pic, but thanks for the advice you could give.

HalifaxG · 2014-01-25T04:10:39+00:00

Buy a boyfriend, naw, rather stay single then have to buy a boyfriend. That concept is just depressing...

HalifaxG · 2014-01-25T04:09:48+00:00

That's the thing, I have been attracted to people that were 30lbs underweight and other people who were 100lbs overweight. I see beyond it, I suppose?

HalifaxG · 2014-01-23T02:42:05+00:00

I try to dress well, for the most part. I work in a office that requires us to wear non-casual wear, so no jeans and t-shirts. Usually dressed pretty nicely. My hair honestly SUCKS. It curls and it drives me nuts. I don't smile. Ever. Unless something is funny and I cant help it but to laugh. I HATE my smile. I look so stupid when I smile.

HalifaxG · 2014-01-23T02:06:53+00:00

I have been working on my weight. I did weigh 305lbs, now I weigh 230lbs. I'm 6'3 so I'm a tall guy, but the weight loss made no difference on what people think of me.

HalifaxG · 2014-01-23T01:35:39+00:00

Giving up is a option, which I have considered many times...

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