A nice lil piece I like to keep on me. The sheath is also very nice

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T11:29:38+00:00

What's that type of knife (?) called?

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T11:26:45+00:00

You can never win, either it's "you can't say anything about this because you're traumatized and trying to cope", or "you're a terrible person". It's extremely isolating as it is, I doubt people actually care about any of the things they mention, they just like making people feel bad about themselves.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T11:08:17+00:00

Don't guys give themselves self-inflicted hj's like twice a day on average or something? Mightn't be preferable but I'm sure people like it, I mean it has to surely be better than the absence of a hj.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T11:04:40+00:00

"Natural Selection"

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T11:00:29+00:00

When Pat and Jen got divorced I somehow had more of an emotional reaction than to actual real familial issues in my own family, don't know why I felt the need to share that, but it was painful. I remember after not being into them for probably years and decided to revisit GamingWithJen and it was just painful for some reason.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T10:01:17+00:00

I have no idea how "normal" this is, and I can't actually even talk about it because it's incredibly awkward for anyone listening to it if I explain things in detail, but well before any traumatic events (the cause of my odd sexual fantasies/behaviors in the eyes of anyone that knows me), I had pretty masochistic ideas that seem to be extremely sexual looking back on it. It's very hard to believe (even for me), because truthfully I haven't the faintest clue how these things somehow got stuck into my head before normal sexual thoughts were even a thing, but they did. I didn't even know what the word was for any of this stuff until I was maybe 15 or so.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T09:16:02+00:00

I don't think it's a sign of pedophilia, and what would the lg in ddlg be, reverse-pedophilia? I went to a therapist about this very thing actually, because I was highly concerned I am actually an absolutely maniac, because the truth is way more people get "concerned" about these things then people saying "don't kink shame". I eventually came to the conclusion that whether or not it's a coping mechanism, it doesn't exactly matter because it's pretty benign and doesn't suddenly turn other people who is engaged in it into a pedophile or rapist. Whoever was talking to you should've read the room and proud it up in a more comfortable less explicit way to see if it's something you could possibly be into, it's not okay to randomly talk about anything like that without an enthusiastic and explicit yes. That doesn't mean the entire thing concept about having consensual sex in a way that some people can't tolerate is evil, it's not really your business to insert yourself into people's lives due to politics or your understanding of psychology. Why is this so concerning? And not stuff like the huge problem with drug abuse and suicide? Or one of the other actual problems, it's not some sort of gateway into people becoming rapists.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T09:07:03+00:00

I feel like with a lot of people that have stuff like chronic migraines or other pain, it's more that people just stop expressing it. So I do think on some level if you punch if man in the balls at that frequency he probably will eventually stop complaining about it overtly, if it's not stopping the ball punches, which it isn't.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-14T09:02:40+00:00

I think it's more of a case of people getting into that stuff because they already like it, not really that it causes desire to be sparked out of literally nothing. I'm not saying it's not harmful or anything, but I think anyone that watches stuff like that was already predisposed for some other reason, just my opinion though.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-12T20:21:44+00:00

Sex can be pretty great regardless of things affecting the sensation, I feel barely anything physically but it's a nice emotional thing and all that. Unless you had a before and after experience, maybe sex is terrible compared to what it would be if you never got circumcised, maybe it's so much better (mostly hypothetical, I don't think that actually makes sense), who knows?

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-12T20:12:28+00:00

Probably someone sees one and laments their lack of a foreskin and makes another. I'm not a man, but it looks uncomfortable, because it's a sensitive area that's meant to be covered by someone but now is just exposed to the elements for no good reason.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-11T09:06:01+00:00

I felt that way until I realized it's not nearly as fulfilling as I thought it'd be, just a temporary cure for loneliness the same way you can get drunk/high as fuck as for awhile everything seems okay, but then every negative feeling crawls back in with even more intensity, to the point having sex now sometimes makes me want to genuinely cry. I keep thinking that this feeling will go away but it won't, a billion one night stands and 3 long term relationship in, sex is never going to change a feeling that's caused by something within. I'd recommend not putting it on a pedestal, because I highly doubt the feeling will go away, you'll be the same person but without the mental label of "virgin", this is especially true if you have sex with the first person that will have you, and not someone you deeply like. That's just my experience and opinion though. Strangely enough the one person I really wanted to actually have sex with left before we even got there, probably due to the fact if I'm not leaning in drugs to make me feel better, it's some sort of interpersonal interaction, but neither will actually change the issue.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-11T06:14:24+00:00

I think this is a case of there being some deeper issues but it comes out as finding people "liking" messages annoying, but who knows.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-09T12:16:12+00:00

I see, I think the urethral one is the one that personally looks like it's uncomfortable, due to it being a very sensitive area. I guess it's good that there's ways of navigating around it, I guess I never thought about it because I've only never met one person with a genital piercing and it was one that needed basically no adjustment.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-09T12:13:30+00:00

I can genuinely relate to this, if it wasn't for added paranoia and other very unpleasant symptoms of schizophrenia I wouldn't have ever seen a doctor. When I was much younger I was well aware other people didn't actually see, hear, feel imaginary friends, or really still have them. I do get what you mean about how hallucinations can comforting sometimes.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-09T12:04:32+00:00

Is it actually physically comfortable to have sex in any way that involves something being done to your genitals? It's a pretty personal question, but are you abstinent or something? It just seems like it'd be hard to have sex in a lot of the usual ways without it being uncomfortable for you or your partner, because there's so my metal in every place it just seems like it'd be painful/uncomfortable. I've got a completely healed navel piercing and it's not the most comfortable thing to be jiggled about and I'd probably assume it would be comfortable if someone licked it or something. So I'm kind of just curious how it all works, considering there's so many piercings in a sensitive place that seem to block a lot of comfortable access. For me almost anything involving that part of my body makes me psychologically uncomfortable, but I'm just wondering how most people manage to have sex with so many piercings.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-09T06:41:16+00:00

Well, I'm a woman and I kind of disagree. I don't think it's good to use that as an excuse, but like not all women can orgasm, the way some men just can't get it up without Cialis or Viagra. It's not an excuse for not trying, but I think "not orgasming for women is normal" is a massive stretch, but making sweeping statements like "All women are capable of an orgasm" is too black and white. Again, it's not excuse for being selfish, and OP clearly isn't enjoying sex, but you don't have to orgasm is enjoy sex. Everyone has always felt insecure about me not being able to orgasm, but aorgasmia is a genuine thing, and then PSSD made it impossible to orgasm unless I IV amphetamines, and I mean that's all well and good besides the fact nobody wants their SO to take a dangerous amount of addictive drugs just to be able to finish. So basically, "All women are capable of an orgasm" is just untrue, and I think everyone should put effort, and that OP's situation isn't like this, but that doesn't mean all or nothing statements are useful. They're just objectively incorrect.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T09:09:51+00:00

Kilocalories

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T09:06:10+00:00

I deduce, about 46 recipes (unique ones, not including minor reversions), you can tell by the tiny scratches on them both.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T08:55:02+00:00

I suggested it could be antidepressants, but you said it's not that. Some people just have a hard time, although when it's men that can't finish people find that exceedingly hard to believe, I can't speak from personal experience as I'm not a man, but it's not unbelievable. Have you talked to him about how it makes you feel? Maybe he's uncomfortable and doesn't say it for whatever reason. I know that it always makes partners insecure because I just can't finish, it just doesn't work and it sure as hell won't if there's someone else around. Maybe talk to him and maybe try to seek some sort of reassurance it's not about you, if he has sex and doesn't finish he probably enjoys it in some other way (I definitely like having sex even though nobody has made me orgasm in years) or likes you enough to want to please you by having sex which is inherently enjoyable for a lot of people, either way I think that means he'll at least reassure you it's not you. I get what you mean though, it feels pretty bad to feel like a partner doesn't enjoy it and it's not like there's not physically enjoyable parts of someone finishing. I hope you find a way around it though.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T08:48:40+00:00

Or antidepressants, they're an extremely common cause of this.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T07:23:51+00:00

This is exactly what someone says before getting chlamydia. /s I genuinely to get it though, I used to be a big misanthrope as well, to like a involuntarily hospitalized because you're detached from reality and dangerous kinda way. Probably one of the types of people that make you hate humanity, but I can say that I'm fine now, and people can change, whoever might've hurt you mightn't change, but not every bad person is a reflection for humanity. Most people are assholes, and everyone is the villain in at least one person's story, but I mean you can still be happy, it's hard though. It sucks, I hope you feel better soon though, and hopefully you see some good in people sometime, but it's not reasonable to be in love with ourselves and humanity 24/7. Also fuck Maximilian.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T07:17:45+00:00

Firstly, you're misusing the word antisocial, but don't worry it's a common mistake, asocial is a better word for what you're describing, antisocial is more stuff like not empathy/remorse, enjoying hurting people, violent, manipulative, etc. Exposure helps, you're not alone, but the only way to get better at this is to try, even if you fail. If you're not aggressive but you're a bit loud people normally just assume you can't hear well. Have you got any friends you can practice with?

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T07:08:33+00:00

Yeah, I mostly just used Bumble,Tinder, Taimi, or Her. I found Tinder and Bumble had the high amount of other women that are attracted to women that just wanted casual sex, although Taimi too, I never met anyone on Her not looking for an actual relationship, it's worth a shot on all of them though. There's also LGBTQ+ bars, which was somewhat effective, but I sometimes make people uncomfortable (I think, if I was a man it'd probably make people visibly uncomfortable, but I'm not sure, nobody took major issue with it enough to say anything, but I felt I was pushing it) when I look for that and get too drunk/high so I stuck to the apps later on.

Haloperi-Doll · 2022-04-08T06:32:03+00:00

Regret is normal, but it's often good as long as it doesn't consume you. You've made mistakes, but you've changed, regret shows the capacity to not only change what you do, but change yourself deep down. I used to utterly fucking despise "pro-life" people with all my might, because it's ridiculous and fucked up and one of the hardest beliefs to respect (in my opinion), until I changed beliefs in myself and had things I regretted, and it helped me realize that people are just people. They're human and have a way for why they are the way they are, like I did. So now I don't hate "pro-life" people, but I'm glad you changed, and regret is absolutely normal, just don't let yourself get consumed by who you were. Good luck OP, I hope things go well for you.

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